My baby soothed my soul when no one was there for me
By pinkytabor
@pinkytabor (818)
Philippines
October 2, 2008 10:15am CST
Little children are angels. I do not believe in the "terrible two" stage. My two year old son had just "doctored" my heart when i was in the lowest point of my life. Just recently, I got sick and was depressed because i was also homesick and so lonely. The blues i had could have been also hormonal. Anyway, I was putting my two boys to sleep one night and was trying so hard not to cry when Sami, my two year old son scrambled on top of me, touched my face and said, "Mama, listen, look at me...thank you mama...i love you." I hugged him and tried not to let him see me cry. Then he said to me, stroking my hair, "No cry mama, it's okay...it's okay...no cry...i'm sorry mama, okay? Say okay mama, say okay. Okay?"
I was amazed. To me it was a miracle. Or perhaps God is showing me little fruits of my labor, that i will really reap what i sow. I know deep in my heart that all i am doing is for my little ones and in turn, despite the heartaches and pains, i get comforted with the fact that the love i give them is not in vain. I regained my strength and began to notice, everyday, that Sami is becoming more thoughtful and sweeter. He is only two and he would always say "thank you mama" after i bath him or change him or give him something. Sometimes he'll just run to me, stretch his arms open and say, "love mama! love!" that means he wants a hug. Then he will "inhale" my ears and sigh and say "too much mama?", meaning he loves me so much. Now his little brother, Leaf is also beginning to do the same thing. They are the balm to my wounds.
I thank God for my boys.
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@ms1323 (259)
• United States
2 Oct 08
Oh - I know exactly what you mean! When my son was 4 years old he looked at me from across the table and said "mommy, have I told you how much I love and appreciate you?" Appreciate you? Wow, what 4 year old knows how to say that, let alone what it means AND that it was exactly what I needed to hear at that moment! It was the sweetest thing I think anyone has ever said to me, even now, 4 years later.
While it is so difficult to be a mom, especially a sahm, it is times like those when we are most rewarded.
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@Barb42 (4214)
• United States
2 Oct 08
And let me tell you, Ms and Pinky, that both of you have something else to look forward to - the love of their children (your grandchildren). Our children were loving and we taught them to be loving to others. In turn, their children are very loving. My grandchildren, even when they call us, they never hang up without saying, "I love your, Nanny", or Papa, whomever they are talking to. They never go without giving us a hug wherever they may see us. It is so special! Other people have commented how loving they all are. They aren't embarrassed to show the love in the public.
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@pinkytabor (818)
• Philippines
2 Oct 08
Thank you Barb. When my first born was still little and i was pregnant with my second baby, I always pray (laying my hands on both my tummy and my sleeping baby) that they will grow to be loving children. I also prayed that i will be able to set a good example to them. God answered my prayers. And here they are, still so small yet able to bring so much joy and comfort even to their grandparents. Now i pray to live long and be able to enjoy the fruits of my labor later in life. I want to see that i have made a difference in and through the lives of my children. If only all the mothers in the world could teach and mold their children to become loving individuals, truly this world will be a better place.
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@ms1323 (259)
• United States
2 Oct 08
Thank you! That is so nice to hear and it is exactly how I want my kids, and their kids etc...to be. If there were more love and affection shown in this world I think it would help everyone, on so many different levels.
@Barb42 (4214)
• United States
2 Oct 08
Children of that age are so precious. They seem to understand life in their innocence perhaps better than us adults. And perhaps God had tuned that little heart into Mama's heartache, and he knew exactly what Mom needed at that moment. The little ones never fail to amaze me in their knowledge of the human heart! You are so fortunate to have those little boys that can read Mama's hurts and give you that hug or love when you need it. Blessings to you all.
@pinkytabor (818)
• Philippines
2 Oct 08
Thanks Barb. Every time i remember that moment, tears still fill my eyes. It is one memory that i will forever treasure. It will always remind me of the value and wisdom of little children. I feel so blessed having them in my life.
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@marina321 (4556)
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3 Oct 08
I agree children are angels and they are truly a blessing
! My four year old will often come to me and give me a hug, sometimes I really need a hug (after a mad day at work) and most times she'll just say 'I love you' or 'I love you too much' and it feels like everything is fine with the world.
There's been various occassions I could talk about but this one time I was taking her to a new minder's for the first time and I was quite anxious and it may have shown because she said 'Don't worry mummy, I'll be ok'; I had not said anything and was thinking in my head, I hope she'll have a good day and she somehow she picked on that
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She has kept me going the past few years and I think God sent her to me to give my life purpose and direction coz that's what I feel I have with her in my life.. She does come out with the most amazing things and we laugh loads during times when I may have felt down, we have been through a lot and now on the other side, I have her to thank for being my angel and getting us through
! My four year old will often come to me and give me a hug, sometimes I really need a hug (after a mad day at work) and most times she'll just say 'I love you' or 'I love you too much' and it feels like everything is fine with the world.
There's been various occassions I could talk about but this one time I was taking her to a new minder's for the first time and I was quite anxious and it may have shown because she said 'Don't worry mummy, I'll be ok'; I had not said anything and was thinking in my head, I hope she'll have a good day and she somehow she picked on that.
She has kept me going the past few years and I think God sent her to me to give my life purpose and direction coz that's what I feel I have with her in my life.. She does come out with the most amazing things and we laugh loads during times when I may have felt down, we have been through a lot and now on the other side, I have her to thank for being my angel and getting us through@pinkytabor (818)
• Philippines
3 Oct 08
Hi marina. Just as we are gifts to our children, they are the same to us. Little ones do have a way of (not just sweetly getting into our nerves sometimes) knowing how we feel. Your child is a very sensitive girl. I think she is very gifted too.
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@Barbietre (1438)
• United States
2 Oct 08
My younger son is like that, it seems we have a bond at the Psychic level even. I think we have have been in a past life together. Recently we had an issue with my older son and to make a long story short late that night my son Rob, the younger one, who is now 38 ( geeze that makes me old) called to discuss it and to see how I was feeling. so yes, they can heal you.
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@pinkytabor (818)
• Philippines
3 Oct 08
My mother and me bond on the same level too. I think this is the same now between me and my oldest. Your son is your blessing. Part of him will always live in you. That's what i believe about my two boys now. It is wonderful to have children who could comfort you.
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@CJay77 (4438)
• Australia
2 Oct 08
I'm sure that little children are angels. That is so nice that your two year old son doctored your heart. It's amazing how much happiness the children's can give to their parents. I'm sure that your children loves you so much and they will always there for you to give you strength and give you a reason to smile everyday. God has many different ways of showing love for all of us, sometimes we just have to open our eyes and heart a little more to see it. I hope that you will feel a lot better soon my friend.
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@pinkytabor (818)
• Philippines
2 Oct 08
Oh thank you CJay. I do feel better now, ever since that day Sami came up to me and said those words. God made me open my eyes and ears through my son.
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@mercuryman3a (2477)
• India
3 Oct 08
Children have a way of soothing your merves when you are feeling low, but at times they can exasperate yuou too, specially whenthey start wailing.
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@pinkytabor (818)
• Philippines
3 Oct 08
Their wailing seems like a test to me, a temptation to give in to anger...and when i pass that test, they begin to soothe my nerves. It is like a reward for passing. They could really be so amazing teachers, right?
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@mycharm88 (2288)
• Philippines
3 Oct 08
Hello there pinky c",)
Awwww... he is such a sweet baby c",) I don't wonder because i know how much you loved them. Yup! i do agree, how amazingly they make us happy with their innocence. I've seen that too with my neices and nephew..lately that happened too with my bestfriend.She was crying at that time and her 2yr old hugged her and said "it's ok mommy, i'm here" and "don't cry mommy, i'm here". That made her cry even more but w/ tears of happiness, it touched my heart hearing what he said to his mom, i must admit i was teary eyed too. I'm proud of you dear friend, because of your love to them, you made them loving angels too. They are precious and gifts from God, and i'm very happy for you.
Kisses for them pls... do take care
@pinkytabor (818)
• Philippines
3 Oct 08
Thank you lots. I wish you the same kind of happiness soon. But then i know you are superbly happy with the new baby of your sister. All the best!
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@Hatley (163781)
• Garden Grove, California
2 Oct 08
hi pinky how lovely you must also be a very soothing mother
to have your little ones love you so and show it to. You
deserve well earned praise for raising such sweet little
children, and they instinctively know what a gem you are.
Just goes to show that the more love you give little ones,
the more it is returned, what goes around comes around., My two when they were babies and toddlers were also very loving, and my son who was a year older than his sister, was very protective of his sister . We lost her when she was eight. one never expects ones child to die first.
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