The Evil Inside

@akalinus (40797)

United States

February 3, 2024 4:39pm CST

The Evil Inside I was recently in rehab after a hospital stay. I was still under the influence of anesthesia which the docs said might last as long as three months. I was also on medications for different things including pain. Every night, Old Bill would walk among the beds. He was a cheerful black man and his visit was the highlight of my night. He took my blood pressure, temperature, and oxygen level. I was glad that someone cared that I was alive. Suddenly, a hand popped out of my side. It pointed to Old Bill. A voice said, “Accuse that man of an indecent act. It would make him lose his job and probably won’t be able to get another. It would be so great.” I refused and rebuked it but the voice kept nagging at me. By morning, it was gone, and I never had anything like that happen again. Where does the evil inside come from? Is it medications and trauma or is it something more than that?

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Vicki, #1 Creek Girl

@1creekgirl (40650)

• United States

4 Feb

I know from experience what strong meds can cause when you're sick. Last June between chemo and radiation, I went into sepsis in the hospital for two blocked kidney stones. I came close to dying because the ER kept me waiting for seven hours. But with the strong meds and the effects of the sepsis, I told my husband he was so mean to me and had always been. I was crazy and had never believed such a thing!

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Vicki, #1 Creek Girl

@1creekgirl (40650)

• United States

5 Feb

@akalinus Are you doing better now?

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@akalinus (40797)

• United States

5 Feb

@1creekgirl Yes, thank you. I am feeling much better and better every day. I hope you are doing much better. I hope your husband is also feeling better and knows you were out of your mind when you said things about him.

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@akalinus (40797)

• United States

4 Feb

Crazy is a good way of putting it. You went through so much more than I did and you survived. I felt like I was crazy for a while.

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@LadyDuck (460454)

• Switzerland

4 Feb

I am pretty sure it came from the medications and trauma.

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@LadyDuck (460454)

• Switzerland

4 Feb

@akalinus I know that anesthesia can play bad tricks to our mind.

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@akalinus (40797)

• United States

4 Feb

@LadyDuck That is an understatement. My mind was imagining all sorts of bizarre things that had no basis in reality.

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@akalinus (40797)

• United States

4 Feb

I hope that is what it was. I never had thoughts like that before and would never accuse anyone of something they did not do.

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@kaylachan (58971)

• Daytona Beach, Florida

3 Feb

I would have to guess trauma, combined with being medicated. While helpful, some medications have unhelpful and unintended side-effects. I am glad you're alright, and that episode was a one-time event.

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@akalinus (40797)

• United States

3 Feb

Thanks. I am glad I did not say anything about Old Bill. He was not guilty of anything. How that awful message sneaked through, I'll never know. PS, I changed the name. Old Bill is not anything like the real name.

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@kaylachan (58971)

• Daytona Beach, Florida

3 Feb

@akalinus I figured you might've. People you deal with in real life deserve their privacy, even if they don't realize it.

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@RebeccasFarm (86976)

• United States

4 Feb

I have never heard of something so evil.

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@RebeccasFarm (86976)

• United States

4 Feb

@akalinus You had great faith to do so.

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@akalinus (40797)

• United States

4 Feb

Me either but it happened on my watch. I am grateful that I fought against saying anything. God is good.

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@akalinus (40797)

• United States

5 Feb

@RebeccasFarm I had to. There was no choice. Evil has already lost the long battle and we can't let it get a foothold in our lives.

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@Dena91 (15934)

• United States

4 Feb

Medications can make people think and do things that they normally would not do. Hope that you are feeling better now.

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@akalinus (40797)

• United States

4 Feb

I am feeling much better. I think part of the problem was that the food was so bad and so little that I was losing a pound a day in rehab. Being hungry does things to you also.

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@akalinus (40797)

• United States

8 Feb

@Dena91 Now, I am only taking meds for blood pressure and neuropathy. I feel much better now and don't have crazy thoughts anymore.

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@Dena91 (15934)

• United States

6 Feb

@akalinus Yes, it certainly can do a work on you. Glad that you are doing better now.

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@LindaOHio (158688)

• United States

4 Feb

I'm glad you didn't say anything. It was probably the meds and what you've been through. Hope you are feeling better. Have a good day.

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@akalinus (40797)

• United States

4 Feb

It had to be the meds and hunger. I lost a pound a day in that place because the food was bad.

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@akalinus (40797)

• United States

4 Feb

@LindaOHio I needed to lose weight but maybe that is not the best way. I need to exercise more to keep the weight off.

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@LindaOHio (158688)

• United States

4 Feb

@akalinus I'm sorry to hear that.

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@AmbiePam (86002)

• United States

3 Feb

One of your medications must have done a number on you.

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@akalinus (40797)

• United States

4 Feb

Yes, I think so. Or it could be different medications interacting with each other.

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@snowy22315 (171260)

• United States

4 Feb

It seems it is easy to halluncinate when under strong meds.

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@akalinus (40797)

• United States

5 Feb

I could not believe some of the stuff I thought I was seeing and doing. I was so glad that those things started fading away.

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@jstory07 (135152)

• Roseburg, Oregon

4 Feb

When evil comes out of you that is the devil at work. Ignore that devil.

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@akalinus (40797)

• United States

4 Feb

It was hard but I know right from wrong. The devil has already lost but wants to take people with him at the end.

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@RasmaSandra (74146)

• Daytona Beach, Florida

4 Feb

I would say the mind is confused with medication and trauma and it has bad side effects, Glad you are now all right

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@akalinus (40797)

• United States

4 Feb

I feel a lot better than before. I imagined all sorts of crazy stuff.

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@TheHorse (207506)

• Walnut Creek, California

4 Feb

A nightmare?

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@JudyEv (326726)

• Rockingham, Australia

4 Feb

I'm sure it's the medications. My mother had something a bit similar when she was on strong medications. I'm glad you didn't act on it.

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@akalinus (40797)

• United States

4 Feb

Thank you. I am so grateful that I was able to suppress that desire to accuse him of something. I could not live with myself if I did that.

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@Hannihar (129681)

• Israel

5 Feb

@akalinus That sounds like a weird experience you had. There are enough evil people around that cause problems and maybe it was one of them. I am glad you stood up to it and did not ruin the man's life.