Lost Your Faith?

@wolfie34 (26771)
United Kingdom
January 6, 2007 6:28pm CST
I was never a church-goer but always believed there was a God until my nan passed away. She had been suffering with the big C for approximately ten years, she would never speak Ill of anyone, she loved life, she would do anything for anyone and I loved her dearly. She was cruelly taken away at 68 losing her fight. That was 20 years ago. When she died I lost my faith in any god, after all what god would make someone suffer for that amount of time and then take her life? When there are evil people in this world who live and kill people. Have you ever lost your faith?
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• United States
7 Jan 07
I think about Faith and the big God question. My logical mind can not support the existence of something so intangible and utterly without proof. Unlike yourself, I don't think I ever really did believe in God. In many ways, I wish that I had, so that I might know what that felt like, having faith. I have to agree with you... I cannot believe in a god that would allow innocent children to suffer abuse, nor allow innocent people to be murdered, nor something as vile as cancer and aids to even exist. I can't. If he's so almighty and powerful, then he should show us, allow us to know him that we might believe and that this world might become a better place for that belief. The actual presence of god would be enough to turn many things around for the positive, but it won't happen, because he doesn't exist.
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@wolfie34 (26771)
• United Kingdom
7 Jan 07
Well said! Thank you.
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• India
7 Jan 07
I also had lost my dear one in the last year after having cancer for 5 years.
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@lilaclady (28207)
• Australia
7 Jan 07
Yeh I know it is hard to understand, I am not religious either but I do believe a little in spirituality, it is nice that you care so much and obviously a deep thinker much like myself, but I do believe everyone has a road to travel and sometimes it can be a rough one, I read a book once that said some things about those hard times, that they are there as lessons for others as in maybe this has brought the compassion out, it teaches us to care, I believe your nan would be around you now because of that caring you have. I hope you can get over this hurdle in your life, its one I guess we all have to try to overcome...cheers....
@wolfie34 (26771)
• United Kingdom
7 Jan 07
I do feel she is watching over me and the comfort I have is that I believe in reincarnation and I know she is at least at peace. Thank you for your kind words.
@mbs730 (2147)
• Canada
7 Jan 07
Firstly I am so sorry to hear about your grandmother, I miss my grandmother terribly too and she has been gone for almost 10 years now. And I actually used to be more spiritual but after being constantly stabbed in the back by those who had claimed to have been "friends" I lost that too. I consider myself as an Agnostic more than anything.
@wolfie34 (26771)
• United Kingdom
7 Jan 07
Thank you for your response and kind words, appreciated.
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@patootie (3592)
7 Jan 07
I'm not sure I even know the meaning of being religious .. I've never been a regular church goer of any denomination .. and quite frankly having seen the folks who did go to church regularly in the various places I have lived I wouldn't even want to go to a church with them ... .. One place I lived the vicar even gave a special sermon for the 'swinging' couples who lived in MY road .. yikes!! .. and right across the road from me too ... the tales I could tell you !! Another place and the most regular church goers were all from local 'criminal' families and their teenage boys were in and out of Borstal .. other places the families were the kind who looked down their noses at anyone who didn't quite fit in with their ideals ... certainly not my idea of 'good' folks .. I've never wanted to be a part of any particular religion, because none really fits my own thoughts on what 'God' means .. and with over 3,000 religions to choose from how can I make a choice until I have finished reading about them all ...
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@wolfie34 (26771)
• United Kingdom
7 Jan 07
Maybe we should start our own religion LOL.
@bonnibp (103)
• United States
7 Jan 07
I've had everything bad happen to me and right now I'm fighting for my health. I'm fighting not to get Cervical cancer. I'm so close and I've been on a watch list for 3 months. Since those months passed I've upgraded to 6 months. I wonder why me because I'm so young and I didn't lose my faith but I was drawn to Buddhism even though I'm Christian. I'm just tired of fighting for everything. Life shouldn't be this hard with so many obstacles. I really feel the diseases we have today are all man made.
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• Australia
7 Jan 07
I was never a church or a God goer either wolfie34, until i met my -now- husband. Him and his family are very Christian. It took me a while to come around..going to church was very different,the clapping, singing, preaching... I thought OMG what am i doing here... but do you know what, through that, i have become a Christian, and a true believer in the Almighty God. I too, have had my loved ones taken from me. I have had in the last year, 2 of my best friends parents pass from cancer..i was there with both of them. My aunty passed from cancer...and sadly, my Nanna passed away in her sleep. As much as i was angry and upset with God during those hard times...you just have to believe that thats where our loved ones are, with God, watching over us. God, our awesome father, did not make our world like this. MAN did... You have to have faith in Jesus, if you don't, why are we here?? Good luck wolfie34 in your journey, may God Bless you. xo
@wolfie34 (26771)
• United Kingdom
7 Jan 07
Thank you for your kind words, appreciated.
@sagarbx (732)
• India
7 Jan 07
i have still belif on god. and still i pray and go to temple once in a week...............................................................................................................................................
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@jricbt (1454)
• Brazil
7 Jan 07
Yes I have lost my little faith, never had much of it anyway. But I lost it due to reasoning, reading , thinking a lot, not as the result of the loss of a loved one. You are speaking here of the problem of evil (How a god that is claimed to exist and is god allows evil in the world). Well, for the answer is that the world is unfair, evil exists, there is no god, and altough you suffered this loss, you still have good memories of her, and this can help and comfort you, I hope.
@minxy67 (2707)
7 Jan 07
I lost my faith long ago, everytime I see suffering I think that there can't be a god. I have never had my children christened.I have left them all to make up their own mind in what they belive in.
• Australia
7 Jan 07
Being Christened as a baby, is totally different from being Babtised in the Holy Spirit.. Doesn't matter if you believe or not, i think its a beautiful day, of all family coming together.. also, if anything ever happened to me and my husband, i would love our best friends to be god parents to our children..i least then i will have peace of mind, if anything did ever happen to us..
@wolfie34 (26771)
• United Kingdom
7 Jan 07
I found out a few weeks back that I wasn't christened, it was because I was so ill as a child. Good for you for letting your children decide and not enforcing it on them.
• Philippines
7 Jan 07
Yes, at one point in time. I got it back somehow but it doesnt seem to have the same intensity that I know I had before. I dont really understand why God does things or allows things like this to happen because everytime we ask this question the only answer that we'll ever get is that "God has a plan". Whatever it is, we are not to know it. The only recourse we have is to look at things positively and trust God that he's got a good reason to allow things to happen. That maybe things are better off to the way as it is. That maybe the only reason God allowed us to have our loved ones only to be taken away later is that we still needed them upto that point. That maybe our loved ones already needed their rest and God just decided to give it to them. There are alot of possibilities but none of it will tell us exactly why. Because God is a being that we really dont have access to. I think that if my granma was alive she'll tell me that i need to trust God more. After all faith is placing your life in God's hand. Alot of it is still tricky to me and I'm still working on the details of my beliefs.
@luvgold (264)
• Indonesia
7 Jan 07
The belief with God was the principle of the life because that would showing the quality of the life someone,Thank for your post and enjoy your life
@ilvrshn (463)
• United States
7 Jan 07
Always keep the faith. The same way you want that job in your child care field the same way you must keep the faith in everything else. I am sorry to hear your grandmother but now you see how strong of a woman she is.
@wolfie34 (26771)
• United Kingdom
7 Jan 07
True, thank you very much, you are very kind person.
@sarojrath (247)
• India
7 Jan 07
I too lost my faith in GOD when i broke up with my lover. I loved her a lot and was very carring. but one bad day she broke up with me. That was the day when I really felt bad for my self and my condition. We loose faith for some time when something happens and then again build up the faith when we something good haappens. this is normal human behaviour that we balame others if some thing wrong happens and praise our selfs when some thing good happens.
7 Jan 07
I am so sorry about your nan. Nobody deserves to die like that, and 68 is quite young to die nowadays. I was about twelve or thirteen when I lost my faith, also after losing two much-loved grandparents while they were still only in their sixties. I didn't think a loving God would let the evil in the world flourish the way it does, and nothing has happened over the years to change my mind. I would rather believe in nothing than an evil or indifferent God who sees all these things and lets them go on even though he has the power to stop them.
• India
7 Jan 07
No. I have not lost my faith, I have found it. I firmly believe that god is a figment of peoples imagination. If u really think logically and rationally u will realize that there cant be anything like "God".
@NancyLobo (680)
• India
7 Jan 07
I also had many bad experiences in my life, my son has autism , I had prayed when I was expecting this child for him to be normal and I was happy as he looked very normal when he was born I thanked God but after 2 years he had delay in speech and he was diagonosed with autism, so I was completely shattered, I always felt whether I'm a worst sinner that God allowed him to suffer like this, I have a younger daughter who is normal that is the grace God has given me, yes I feel sad about my son but I still feel that we have to trust in God, Nobody can take his place,
• United States
7 Jan 07
i did loose my faith when my career was at stake but then my father helped me lot and made me understand that god never fails. then i became a pious person and started believing in religion a lot more than i did. after a few years i got really lucky when i got a really good job. thats when my father reminded me the same thing that he said once that god never fails.
• Philippines
7 Jan 07
i was a church goer. an active member of a youth religious group. a student of a catholic school. i never asked anything for myself(atleast when i matured), all i was asking was for my family's good health..nothing more. but suddenly, my mom was diagnosed having a kidney failure and she has to undergo kidney transplant. i really questioned the "god" that we have. After all, i didnt ask anything but for my family's good health.. Why coudnt he give that? This month, my mom is scheduled for a transplant. I worry alot. i love her a lot. it's a dangerous procedure. We never know what could happen, especially that human beings are the ones doing the procedure.. error is possible. untill now i havent regain my faith. only one thing could bring it back to me perhaps.. my mom's operation's success.
• Philippines
7 Jan 07
I think its ur nan's time. everyone has its own end. We cannot question God about this.