how many times did you think of dying?

well i had many instances where i thought that maybe it would be nice to leave this cruel world and stop the suffering by ending my life.. see last year i was very depressive and i had a lot of problems concerning my love life.. i was very doubtful about us and our relationship. i was very insecure and i tend to be so paranoid.. well i have learned that to think negatively makes me so depressive. i often stay alone and in my room and cry and contemplate a lot. i hated everyone and i was feeling so alone.. the world was really cruel and my fault was i didnt fight back.. i let it defeat me and there i was a loser hating life and wanting to die.. now that i have started to communicate with my friends again and my relationship with my hubby is ok i am happy and i tend to fight the pangs of depression.. friends and family can really help a lot when you are down and troubled.. i just hope that i can continue fighting.. well as long as my friends and family are there to support me i think i may have the strength to battle depression and not think of dying again!. hey this is life!. you either get smothered by it or you start fighting and living it succesfully and happily!.

I think everyone feel or think ever it at least at once in their lives... I thought it, too, to tell you the truth, but I understood later it wasn't serious. If I was born it means it has a sence. Haw many times? Hmm, didn't count. :)