Rushing to get married

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I actually never post my personal problem online, but this thing keeps on bugging me and I just dont know what to do. My very close best friend is gonna get married in a few months ahead. I must admit, I envy her SO BAD! I am in a serious relationship right now and so ready to get married and I want it A.S.A.P! Because I want to have children while I'm still young and have enough time to take care of them. The longer I wait, the higher position I'll get at work, the lesser time I have. But things dont go as I want them to be. I dont have any choice rather than to wait! And you know, I dont want to wait. I have talked about this to my bf, and he understood my feelings as he thought the same way. Our savings are still not enough to fund a wedding. You know, wedding is expensive, the catering, the building, the wedding singer, the invitation card etc etc (and the lists goes on) and I dont want to burden my parents about money. This is the first time for me being unable to do anything. I always get what I want, ever since I was a child, and this has become such a burden to me. I am so stressed! I hope God is planning something good for me..what should I do to calm my self down? Please help..