How to handle a death of a love one?

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It's been a while since my last post. We've been busy since my mom got hospitalize and died. So this is what my post is all about... I have never really experienced grieving hard for a family member that died. Well before, my grandmother died and some of my mom's siblings died, but it never really gotten into me. Until it had to happen to my mom, which I never expected. Why, because she was a healthy woman. Never allowed herself to be sick. But what got her was a vehicular accident. She got hit by a taxi which eventually caused her death. She was confined for 3 weeks. 17 days in the Intensive Care Unit and 4 days in a private room. Until now, her death hasn't sinked in. I still can't believe that I don't have a mother anymore. I still can't believe that she only lived for 50 years and that I was only allowed to see and be with her for 22 years. What I don't like most is that she was taken at a time where we always argue because of things where we have different opinions. I have never paid her back yet for what she has given me and I have never really showed her how much I love her. I know it's normal to feel sad and lonely. But is it also normal that her death had not sinked in to me yet? and also, how do you move on? will life ever be the same again?hope to read your opinions on this mylotters...