what is it feel being 30?

before I got 30, I really feared aging. I passed it, but still fear aging. lol I don't know how I get through my 30. Time flies! at least I can say this. no matter whether u get 28 or 30, it's the same as it was. I think I'm always the same as I was. but everything is changed gradually - but certainly! - actually this is the most scary part to me. That everything changes except me, maybe this is just my fault. maybe I needed to be changed. anyway, i don't have kids, yes, because of my age(I'm 31), i'm little worried about it, but not seriously. we koreans tend to marry late, I saw many women married early 30s and even mid-30s and have kids with no problem. and some men i know said, beauty of 30s beats 20s'. lol

Honestly, its a litte bit scary. Next October, i'll be 30. Right now, i am having this ups and downs of emotional battle. My idea of 30, it should be; marriaged, having at least 2 childrens and a business of my own. Well, apparently things don't work out to be just what i wanted. and i am now, still fighting my fear of living my old age alone. By the way, about children, i am dreaming of having 2 boys and 1 girl. Ha ha ha!

Hitting 30 isn't so bad really, and hitting 40 can be said to be quite a good time too. When I hit 50, however, I began to feel a bit over the hill but then I made the decision to stop worrying about the passing years, but enjoy them and pack as much into the years as I could. I met my partner a couple of years ago, and he is young than me. Most guys would probably think that a lady in her 30's is in her prime