Depleted self esteem

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I have recently moved to Lancaster,PA from NJ and have my own apartment with my boyfriend. Although I am very happy with how my life is going right now, there is something that just makes me want to cry. This is the first time in my entire life that I can say I love my job. I am a teller at a federal credit union and get along with everyone there. The head teller is a girl my age who is very sweet to me and she is drop dead gorgeous. I feel so inadequate next to her. Members constantly comment on how beautiful she is and they completely ignore me. I go home at night and cry - my confidence is zero now. The members who are guys turn red and smile when she is waiting on them and they are so nice to her. But when the same person comes in another time and I wait on them they don't return my greatings or even look at me. They are rude and nasty. When I was in Jersey guys used to tell me how pretty I was but since Ive been here in cow country, it's as if I don't fit in. How do I deal with this