a sad sad day
By lovesfreedom
@lovesfreedom (1245)
United States
May 10, 2007 5:10pm CST
Today was a very sad day for me. My husband deployed and I won't see him for a very long time. This week as we spent as much time holding onto each other as possible, he kept saying one thing...don't cry Reesie, don't cry. He is barely gone and I miss him so much that I can scarcely breathe! As always, I put my feelings into a poem.
Don't Cry Reesie, Don't Cry
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Tears pouring down my face
Looking into his loving eyes
He caught one with his fingertip
Don't cry Reesie, don't cry
My life, my love, my heart and soul
Will soon travel through the sky
Sending back a gentle message
Don't cry Reesie, don't cry
So many emotions go through me
And the big question, Why?
His loving words just echo
Don't cry Reesie, don't cry
As night begins to near us
And the final seconds go by
I will lay there in his arms and hear
Don't cry Reesie, don't cry
I'll try to choke back those tears
As I let out a painful sigh
But know the love in his voice
Saying, don't cry Reesie, don't cry
As the days come and go
Praying they will fly
His words will live in my heart
Don't cry Reesie, don't cry
Tears pouring down my face
Looking into his loving eyes
He caught one with his fingertip
Don't cry Reesie, don't cry
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26 responses
@lightningMD (5931)
• United States
10 May 07
T hat was very beautiful. Thanks for sharing something so personal with us. My prayers will be with him as he serves to keep us safe. My prayers will be with you too. Be strong and make him proud of you.
@lovesfreedom (1245)
• United States
11 May 07
thank you so much for your support and prayers!
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@Lauraleigh99 (4718)
• United States
10 May 07
I know how you feel My hubby got deployed in August of 2005 and just got back this last November. It is hard and I cried a lot!! Trust me when it is over it seems like it went fast. People kept on telling me that and i never believed them I told them that they didn't understand but looking back to that time now it went fast. Surround yourself with friends and family whenever you need someone They got me through the hard times and the holidays!
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@lovesfreedom (1245)
• United States
11 May 07
This is my husband's 3rd tour to Iraq since 2003 and boy do I know about the time thing. I have an excellent support system and would not ever want to go through a deployment without them! It is so much easier to talk to people who walk in my shoes. Thank you for your husband's and your service.
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@Lauraleigh99 (4718)
• United States
15 May 07
Oh my god 3rd tour! That is so sad. :( I only had to go through 1 so far. Thank you and your husband also for serving our country!
@ElusiveButterfly (45940)
• United States
11 May 07
My heart goes out to you. Fighting back tears is one of the most difficult things to do when you feel like your heart is being ripped out of you. Breathe, breathe often. Huggers to you.
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@lovesfreedom (1245)
• United States
12 May 07
Thank you my friend! Yes, I told a friend, if you are walking on base around China Beach and see a heart laying there, it will be mine, I am sure it was ripped out right there and thrown.
@sudiptacallingu (10879)
• India
11 May 07
oh god! Why do you have to make me so sad. Its been 10yrs since we are married, and one single night I have not spent away from him for personal reasons, like visiting my mom or friends. But very recently, in the month of January, he had to go for a week to Bombay and I just cried and cried. Every night he used to call me from there and I just did not want to hang up. Only you and people in similar conditions can understand what I went through that week. Though such travels are a part and parcel of life, there is no way I would willing allow him to go again and even then, I would await his return everytime!
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@lovesfreedom (1245)
• United States
12 May 07
I understand completely what it did to you. One day, One week, One year or 15-18 months like I will be going through, it all hurts when the one you love is not home with you.
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@Angelwhispers (8978)
• United States
11 May 07
Your poem is truly heart touching. My thoughts go out to you. If there is any way we can support your husband please let us know, cards letters emails you name it and we will send them. As for you my friend I am here for you. If you want to rant, rave, cry or just talk my PM is always open to you. I have other IM's that would be quicker to chat on if you would like just say the word.
Thank you so much for sharing your wonderful poem.
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@lovesfreedom (1245)
• United States
12 May 07
Thank you so much angel! I imagine there will be times when I need to get it out, just like the other deployments we have been through. This one feels different to me though, I guess because it is a more dangerous mission and also, I have had him so for such a small amount of time.
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@jogie_bien (1103)
• Philippines
10 May 07
the sad of my life is when i am living my country and working in taiwan,that i lived all my love ones in life.And for the last moments my boyfriends did not go with me in the airport because he was still in his work at that time.so for the last time i did not see him even to say"i will miss you alot".
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@lovesfreedom (1245)
• United States
11 May 07
It is so hard to have to leave and not have someone you love there to see you off.
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@cherhost (1072)
• United States
11 May 07
Wow sweetie that was a great way to express your feelings. I am sorry that you have to deal with it. It is not fun! Just remember we at mylot are here for you and if you need to just let it out. That is what we are here for. I know that I have been going through the same thing. So I know the pain! :) Some have different pain... the pregnant, have a ton of kids, never been through it before etc... but we all know what it is like to have spouse leave. Just imagine how they feel! Take care and if you need to talk send me a message....
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@lovesfreedom (1245)
• United States
12 May 07
Thank you and thank you and your family for your service. We walk in the same shoes, hear with the same ears and see with the same eyes, which are a little different from those who have not experienced this.
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@Marie2473 (8512)
• Sweden
11 May 07
Oh I am so sorry. beeing separated from your loved one is so hard and I know exactly how you feel.
I hope that u will soon be together again!
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@elisa812 (3026)
• United States
11 May 07
Thanks for sharing that, it almost made me cry! lol My husband is also deployed right now. He's been gone for right about 2 months. I know it is so hard! Especially right when they first leave. Once you're able to get settled into a routine and everything, it'll be so much better! I hope you will be feeling better soon! You're both in my thoughts. :) Keep looking up!
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@lovesfreedom (1245)
• United States
12 May 07
My thanks to you and your husband. Yea, I figure it will be like the other times and I will settle into a lonely routine. The nights are the hardest, when he is suppose to be home and not at work, or when I find something funny and want to tell him.
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@someonesmom (5761)
• Canada
10 May 07
This is a very touching discussion, and what a beautiful poem. It's such a sacrifice he's making to allow everyone to live in freedom. God Bless.
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@lovesfreedom (1245)
• United States
11 May 07
Thank you very much. He was given a choice to stay behind and command the Rear D but would not even think of not being there with his soldiers. He makes me so proud!
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@retardedrugrat (4791)
• Canada
11 May 07
I'm so sorry for you right now. I cannot imagine how painful your separation must have been.
I read your poem and you worded it beautifully, it brought tears to my eyes and a lump to my throat, not many poems have that effect on me. It expresses your pain so so well.
I really don't have any words for you I'm afraid, I've never seen anyone being deployed and so I don't know what it must feel like. However, please know that you and your husband are in my thoughts and prayers at this time.
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@lovesfreedom (1245)
• United States
12 May 07
Oh my friend, you had the greatest of words for me! PRAYER! Thank you so much!
@PunkyMcPunk (1477)
• Canada
11 May 07
I know that nothing I can say will make you feel better but I do want you to know that I truly do appreciate the sacrifice that you and your husband are making to help keep me and my son safe. Thank you so much from the bottom of my heart. Nothing I can say can tell you how thankful I am for your husbands bravery or your personal sacrifice of not having your husband around. Thank you. I am saddened that we have to have war in this day and age but I am thankful to the brave people that put themselves in the line of fire for people they don't know like me. My thoughts and prayers go out to you, your husband and your family as well as all the others who have came before and will come after.
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@lovesfreedom (1245)
• United States
12 May 07
Thank you, your words mean so much to me, other families and the brave soldiers!
@munhozmib (3836)
• Sao Paulo, Brazil
11 May 07
I'm sorry to know about your situation. I hope you'll be ok. As far away as your husband is, remember that he is in your heart.
Oh, and nice poem! Really nice one. Thank you for sharing this with us.
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@lovesfreedom (1245)
• United States
11 May 07
Thank you so much for your wise words!
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@aizamari21 (19)
• Philippines
11 May 07
great one. thanks for sharing this to all
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@kgwat70 (13388)
• United States
12 May 07
I am sorry that you and your husband will be apart from each other for a while. I know that has to be a very hard feeling on both of you and that you both will miss each other so much. Where was he deployed to? I hope he did not have to go to the Middle East. That was a beautiful poem that you wrote and hope that he took a copy of your poem with you. I am sure he feels the same way about you. Hopefully you both will be able to correspond with each other and let each other know how you are doing.
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@lovesfreedom (1245)
• United States
12 May 07
He is deployed to Iraq. He is my heart, soul and the very air I breathe! He is also a soldier's soldier, he could have stayed behind and commanded the Rear Division, but he would not allow his soldiers to go without him. I respect and admire him even more for the way he takes care of his men.
@danishcanadian (28953)
• Canada
11 May 07
That is absolutely beautiful!!! I can tell from your writing how much he loves you. How long will he be gone? Your story brought tears to my eyes. I am in a long distance relationship, but though we are far apart, atleast he's not at war. THAT is hard enough, I can't begin to imagine how you must feel. WOW!!! You are definitely in my prayers.
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@lovesfreedom (1245)
• United States
12 May 07
Thank you so very much! He will be gone from 15-18 months, but will get 2 weeks to come home for rest and relaxation sometime in there.
@KrisNY (7590)
• United States
11 May 07
Absolutely beautiful! I'm sorry that your husband has deployed- You didn't say to where- I hope nowhere dangerous- I thank our solderis every day for our freedom! My brother is a US Army Soldier- deployed to Iraq for 15 months- He has been there 3 so far- It is hard for me as his sister- I can't imagine it being my husband! I'll keep him and you in my thoughts- Again beautiful poem!
@lovesfreedom (1245)
• United States
12 May 07
Thank you and your family and especially your brother. My husband left for Iraq. This is his 3rd time there since 2003. He is also US Army serving with the 3rd Infantry.
@AmbiePam (92518)
• United States
11 May 07
It's hard to understand the magnitude of your situation, but you gave us insight we would not have seen otherwise. I am sending out prayers for you both - that you both would have comfort and be kept safely. I admire the soldier's wife as much as the soldier. Thank you for your sacrifices.
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@lovesfreedom (1245)
• United States
12 May 07
Thank you so much! Yes, Army, Marine, Navy, Air Force wife...hardest job in the military is what they say.
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@mamasan34 (6518)
• United States
21 May 07
That was the most touching poem. I do know how you feel though. My husband is deploying in two weeks and I just don't want to let him go! I already feel lonely if that makes any sense and every time I see him laying in bed asleep, I want to cry. Keep your chin up girl!