Life is Hard Sometimes

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Let me start by introducing myself. Hi there, I'm Celisa, and I'm fairly new to mylot, as you may or may not be able to tell. I spend little time on the computer, though I used to be a computer addict, because my old computer sort of fried and was taken over by an ex. Anyway, enough of that. I am a troubled woman. My whole family is trouble. My sister has a keychain that says "my name is trouble and I earned it" and boy is she right about that one. She was arrested over the weekend for who knows what. I mean, I think she must've been driving erratically at 3:00 in the morning or something, but she was actually on her way home to help me by bringing me some medicine that I desperately needed. Problem is, she stopped for a drink or two along the way. She blew a legal limit though, thank God. She had other things that were confiscated and is now going to be charged for illegal possession of those things. Not good. She's been very depressed, suicidal, and since she and I are best friends and live under the same roof (I'm 28, she's almost 27), I feel her pain. I wish there was something I could do to help her. The only thing I can do is watch her and make sure she is okay, that she isn't going to do anything rash like actually ATTEMPT suicide, because if she did, I would be right there to call 911. We have no transportation at the moment because the car that she was using (which happens to belong to my father, who is away on a bowling trip), is impounded. Tomorrow, I can spend a lot of money that I don't have to get it unimpounded. Great. So I'll call the bank, have them transfer what little money I have in my savings to my checking and write out a check for nearly $100.00 for something that could've been avoided. But I am not angry with my sister, because she really was trying to help me out. She is afraid she is going to prison because she has prior charges, and she may be right about it. I sure hope this isn't the case but it very well could be. I myself am on diversion for something that could've and should've been avoided - and I want it to end like right now! I have to see a counselor weekly, and follow her recommendations for me. Well, I've been going, and I don't feel much better, but at least I have counseling in place. Maybe I should do the same for my sister - get her back into counseling. If it wasn't for her, I actually wouldn't be in counseling right now. My sister has spent so much time and energy helping to be my medical advocate over the past few weeks (I'm disabled and in need of a lot of care), that I think she has neglected herself, and I feel responsible for that. Now that I'm doing okay (I'm lying here), I'm going to repay the favor by helping her in whatever way I can. Okay, I think I've said enough. I will continue discussing how hard life is later...until then, discuss how hard your life is and if you have any suggestions, please, let me know!