life, in general

United States
May 23, 2007 3:46am CST
well, here goes, i am hopelessly flawed. i have been in jail 5 times and never want to go back. were to begin... it all started when i was 10 years old, i was chubby and my mom told me if i was fat when i greaw up no one would ever love me. age 17, still chubby and fed up with it. this is when i began my aneorexic phase...not eating for days at a time... that didn't last long. i love food and unforturnately i posess the reflex that alows me to puke without sticxking my finger down my throat. i've been bulemic for over 6 years it'a hell it's agony my teeth are rotted my pulse is fast my hair falls out it's all been my life up till now... i met a guy an amazing guy who loves me for me despite my flaws to many to count... he knows my deepest darkest secrets the ones i wouldn't even tell to my best girlfriend who would also love me regardless of the things i've done and the people i knew bad people so this guy... he's different in a good way, not the serial killer type of way, lol... he tlls me i'm beautiful he tells me i'm gorgeous beauty is in the eye of the beholder i love him that's all always, Kelly K
2 responses
xueyao
@xueyao (164)
• China
24 May 07
I want to say is that you must cherish your life at the being time whatever happened in the past.No one excellent in any way,and someone said ever"Never is the perfect life without been in prison".so you have the whole experience but most of other people can't. With luck, I belive that you have your idean of the life in the futher recently,you will be confident of everything, and you get a good friend and a real friendship,It is a great thing,It is worth of receiving other thing if he can make mistake.you can take that unhappy going through as a lessen in your life.
hollowheart
@hollowheart (1572)
• India
23 May 07
Hi KELLY, indeed u r a wonderful person and surely very beautiful from within ur heart. I feel really sad that in 17 yrs life has litterally come to an end and that too full of pain, agony and sorry, just because u r chubby. I cant trust that. Remember friend u r lucky to have someone to love u so much. I appreciate him and thank him to have kept u alive till date. I would suggest to forget the past which i believe is impossible, but remember its a new day and u can take a step forward to see the beautiful earth. i shall pray for u as i am too far off. but i am with u too and would love to see u smile agin. u r too young to be facing such sorrow and pain. I want to heal ur wounds and that bleeding heart. maybe people have been too bad to u but we r still there. I dont say i am good, but i love u too. Maybe as ayoung sister and a nice friend too. Please dont shed ur tears for what u have not done.