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I have to apologize in advance for this. i am just disgusted. It seems that all i do is struggle and struggle to make ends meet. I live in southern mississippi and even though katrina hit us 2 years ago i am still trying to survive the effects. right after the storm, FEMA moved in and thought that money was the answer. so they handed out many many checks to pay peoples rents. I didn't qualify of course. anyway, when the landlords realized that fema was paying all this money, they more than doubled the rents. Here in picayune pre-katrina, you could rent a modest apartment for between 300 and 500 per month. After my husband and i split up i looked into renting a very nice apartment at a very nice complex, 3 br with pool and amenities for 600 per month. now that same apartment rents for over 1000 per month. I make approximately 2300 per month and yesterday i couldn't even afford to fill up my propane tank. so now my children and i are without hot water, stove for cooking etc. Do i really have to get married again just to have another income so that i can pay every day-to-day bills. I mean people please, i don't splurge on things. it has been over 2 years since i had my hair cut, i have never had my nails done, my car is falling apart. I just got insurance on my car for the first time since november because i just couldn't afford it. so then i try to make a few dollars online and all you get is screwed. I thought about taking on a part time job but a have 2 children and one is still little and i don't have time with them now. i am so disgusted that i could just spit. i just think that it should be alittle easier than it is. prices are going up sky high and i just can't pay it. hell gas is costing my 400 per month now. this just really sucks because apparently i make "too much" for federal assistance. and to top the cake, my ex dropped the kids insurance and my son a few weeks had a serious head injury by getting hit by a baseball bat. I took him to the emergency room, they did a cat scan and kept him for hours. it was the scaredest i had ever been. who do you think will be stuck with that bill. My son is recovering nicely (thank you Jesus) but now i know that this bill will be coming and again i can't pay it. So what does a person like me have to do in order to take care of her children. Ok so i am sorry i let it all go but i have no one to vent to. thank you for being there