Okay, I will finally admit it, I AM an alcoholic.

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I have drinken for a long time, since I went through a big transition of Bipolar. I have used alcohol as a medication for me, and it has worked wonders! I admit, alcohol has been a great medication for both my bipolar episodes as well as my irrational behaviour brought upon by my bipolar behavior. Alcohol seems to work much better then my medication. Just tonight I was having such an urge for alcohol that I made my husband drive an hour from where we live to just go get some alcohol. I am drunk right now, and I must admit I feel so good. I have been on a certain perscription to help me control my behaviior, but I ran out, so alcohol is my only solution. And I must admit, I am feeling pretty good right now! So my question is, when do you know too much is enouth, when do you know that you have had your limit? Or do you like to go beyond boundraries and drink what ever you want until you know you have had enough. For those who don't undrerstand why I drink, I will tell you. I drink because it relaxes me. It makes me feel calm. And it makes me forget about the bad things that mey be going on. I like to drink because it relieves my emotional behavior. I must ssy, I have been through alot, and I use alcohol as a medication for my illness. Mostly because I have found no other solution. So answer my quesions and answer honestly. Do you think I am a bad person. Those who know what I have been through will understand. Tell me your honest opinions on my problem. Do not forget to any recent events that may play a role in any recent event in your life. I mean, I have been through alot in my life, and I cannot help to undrestand teh differences in eacho0uther's lifes. So tell me, do you drinl. Do you understand why I drink? Tell me your ture thoughts on this subject?