what have i done...

I feel your pain and I have been where your heart is now. My childrens' father has no interest either. In the end the best thing you can do is get on with your life without him. Try to lose the anger. It hurts YOU and it does not hurt that jerk at all. The perfect revenge is to bring up your son as a good person without that man in his life. Don't bother to tell your son he is bad. Make sure you never say bad things about his father because it will make your son an angry person. But you can be honest. I tell my children that their father has never sent a birthday card and that he just did not want to be a parent. I say it without being nasty and I say it casually, and only when they ask. That is enough, they do not have to see me get angry or cry, they already know that he is not a good person and they will never blame me for making them feel that way. If he replies, remmember one thing: You made a mistake today by contacting him. No matter how hurtful or nasty he is, delete the next message and do not reply. You are better than that! You can be stronger and resist. It will only hurt more so do the best thing for yourself and say, "he didn't win the argument, I won it because I chose to end it and I am in control." Then call a friend and cry your heart out if you have to. Get it all out and move on. You cannot be truly happy while you hate someone, so make a decision to cut him from your life. I wish you well.

I understand ur concern, but 1 thing you must consider that life may be troublesome with what you are experiencing but never loose confidence because every morning brings to us what we can never imazine earlier so just keep on trying your best to settle the clash but don't think that you can do nothing without him. So be bold as per what RABINDRANATH TAGORE had said that " be bold to walk alone if nobody gives you the company".