Today lost a son
By _hope_
@_hope_ (3902)
Australia
June 26, 2007 5:25am CST
Well in fact i lost him three years ago but today to me he died i totally wash my hands with him and his partener .For the past three years my heart has been torn apart .Tonight his partener textes his little sister to tell her he has undergone a five hour major surgery today .Its the final straw . I just do not want to know any more .HE DIED TODAY
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@student7 (1002)
• United States
26 Jun 07
I am sorry that you lost your son.
I don't know why his partner texted his little sister, instead of texting you, his parent. That part is inexcusable. I won't ask what caused this but let me offer my condolences to you and your family for your loss.
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@mansha (6298)
• India
27 Jun 07
Dearest Hope, lots of hugs. I know whatever I say can never lessen your sorrow and I probably can never fell what you have gone through and what you are feeling. I just want to say as a mother just wish your child well and let him live his own life. I always tell myself that though I cna give birth to a kid but I can not live his life for him or write his fate thats always pre-decided and God probably thought you were the best person to have him and love him as no other would have in this whole wide world. May be thats why you were chosen as his mother. God never gives us burdens which we are too weak to handle. Love you a lot.
@cokyjazz (429)
• Australia
26 Jun 07
Hi hope,
I'm sorry i haven't been on my lot much to come in and answer your posts but you poor dear,i can see you have been through the wringer big time.I can see how upset you were when you typed this post and i'm not sure of the meaning.I take it that you and your son have been estranged for 3 years (even though you have still been worrying like mad about him) and now you find that even something as serious as a major operation..you are still only worth passing the message onto AFTER he has had the surgery???
(((hugs))) to you.How many times can a heart break by the same person?In your mind and spoken aloud,you can say you have wiped him because you know that's the only way to stop hurting.The truth whether you know or you don't know what is going on with him.. you will still worry and the pain will still be there.
Try to concentrate on the good in your life and know you have friends to turn to.
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@BELMCstar (1341)
• Australia
27 Jun 07
I think it is so sad that you and your son do not get on with each other like this.
I don't get on with my mother, but that is for something she did quite a while ago which hurt me physically, mentally & emotionally as well as psychologically.
I will still talk to her on occasion, and will send her a text message for her birthday, and other things like that.
However, due to the things she has done, I do not like the actual art of conversation with her.
I hope that you and your son can come to terms with whatever it is and deal with it together.
@KrauseHome (36448)
• United States
27 Jun 07
Wow!! I do not know what to say, but my heart goes out to you. This has to be hard on you, and all I can say is all you can do now is Pray, and ask God to give you direction in the way you need to move from here. If you are not a Praying person I hope you can find Peace and comfort in other ways. Sounds like you need to find solace so you can be able to move on. Wishing you the best.
@mac1946 (1602)
• Calgary, Alberta
27 Jun 07
Hello Hope,I am sorry he did this,it is one of the hardest things for a mother to understand or approve of.
I take it,he and his sister know how you feel,so they just contact each other?
How are you and her getting on now?
Anytime you need to vent girl,give me a shout,I am not far away,(at least in mind and internet)
Take care.
Blessed Be.