A Step In The Right Direction

@wolfie34 (26771)
United Kingdom
June 29, 2007 3:26pm CST
I've finally admitted to myself that I desperately need counseling, I can't make it on my own and I'm a mess to be honest, so I picked up the phone and asked for help today! I've got an appointment for 17th August for an assessment and there is a 3/4 month waiting list but at least I'm on the list now. It's £10/$20 which is means tested, as I am currently not working I pay the basic. Normally private conseling is as much as £45/$90 a session (50 minutes) I've had quite a few conselors in the past but they've only been able to provide 6, 8 or 12 sessions MAX! But the counseling I have found is only 20 minute drive from me and they provide as many sessions as I need, which is a great relief indeed! My GP as you know is less than useless and no counseling is offered, just the damn antidepressants which they want to force down my neck! But it's investing money into my life and if I go on the way I am then well it doesn't need saying. I hate being depressed, I hate feeling the way I am and I want to change. It's the first, small step but at least there's hope!
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29 responses
@weemam (13372)
29 Jun 07
What is that saying pal that a long journey starts with just the first step , you have taken that step pal and you are now on a new road , the first appointment is a few weeks away but that can be looked on at as the first day of the rest of your life , you are a lovely person and you deserve more than what you are going through at the moment pal . you could ask to about what I emailed you about pal , maybe not the first visit but later on once you feel more comfortable , I am so proud of you Brian , you have got off yer bum pal and taken the bull by the horns , good on you pal , xx
@wolfie34 (26771)
• United Kingdom
29 Jun 07
I realized that my quality of life was appalling and I was wallowing in self-pity no one can help me unless I reach out and grab the help by the horns as you said, I am my own worst enemy and I need to break out of that horrible scenario once and for all. With my retreat coming up in 5 weeks it'll help me to see things clearly when I'm not here if you see what I mean xxx
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@weemam (13372)
29 Jun 07
I know what you mean pal , kinda standing on the outside looking in , good luck pal xx
@yanjiaren (9031)
29 Jun 07
I think I will join you Wolfie, I could do with some of that too..I have been through a lot and always tried to cope and keep on top of things. But sometimes in life we just need that extra prod, that extra bit of help to get us believing in ourselves again. My little businesses have also helped me and I have noticed in you also, since really taking the bull by the horns you are more optimistic than before..We can keep each other up on our lows and share also the highs..I am with you all the way..I want to be like a sis to you and let you know that I also will be here in my mad way to give you a prod when you need..I may suffer from foot in mouth sometimes but you know my intention is never to hurt any one. Massive hugz from mad Greek lol. Well done..you have done a brave and wise thing AND I AM PROUD OF YOU!!
@yanjiaren (9031)
29 Jun 07
This is also a kind of therapy Wolfie, the more we think and do positive things, the more our demons go out of the window..It's been a tough ride for me today but with keeping busy and the help of lovely friends and fam8ily, like you..My day has a lovely silver lining..Thank you Wolfie for accepting this mad Greek as your friend and sis, I am really honoured.
@gabs8513 (48686)
• United Kingdom
29 Jun 07
Wolfie well done and I hope you know that a few of your Friends will be behind you all the way and support you all the way why do you have to pay for Counsellings though Sweetie I would have that you would get it free
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@wolfie34 (26771)
• United Kingdom
29 Jun 07
Thank you my friend,not in this country, and the NHS is appalling for counseling, my GP won't help me or refer me. But £10 is affordable.
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@gabs8513 (48686)
• United Kingdom
29 Jun 07
Oh thats why as I was referred by my Doctor Do not let this knock you back Sweetie I stopped it but I had reasons to and even my Doctor admitted it was making me worse but Wolfie it involved a lot with me Sweetie right back to the age of 5 up to 5 years ago ok so please go for it There was to much for me to bring to the Surface and I couldn't but I know it will help you Sweet I know £10 is affordable and also it shows that you are taking the big step xx
@brokentia (10389)
• United States
30 Jun 07
Congrats on making that first step and without your GP that would prefer to give you chemicals instead of sending you to someone that could make real progress. Seriously, congrats!!! The first step is sometimes the hardest step to take! I wish that counseling were less here in the States. Then I would go myself. But given the situation of one income and raising 7 kids...I think I will just have to wait it out.
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@RobinJ (2501)
• Canada
29 Jun 07
Wolfie, good on for you, You have taken a large step forward, the trick is to now listen to what is being said, please do not go into this with a pre made plan of what is going to happen or how you feel it should be. Go with an open mind and be willing to listen and at least try anything. If you start out with a list of things I am not going to do, you will only defeat you purpose. Be honest with them and your self. this is not a popularity contest to prove Wolfie is a nice person, this is a way where Wolfie can learn to help him self. And that is what you need to do and from what you say want to do. You are not going for them to tell you what to do. Ask them to show you how to help yourself get better. Because ultimately it is you that is going to have to do all the work, so why not learn the procedure as soon as possible.Dwelling on past hurts, failures, and bad people will not make it change. Done is done. But you can learn to put all the fear, pain and anger aside and walk around and function in the everyday world. You are in charge of your life not your emotions, emotions cause us to react, not think and act accordingly. If you keep an open mind, and you will know when you are not because you will be saying in your mind" Yes but"So the first time they say something you may not like ask your self. Why are they telling me this, they have nothing to prove,and they do not know you enough to wish to harm you, MAYBE they are just giving you information, and you are thinking criticism.The instant the mind says NO or yes but. you are rejecting something that needs to be thought through. So stop and seriously think it through. You will learn my friend , you are smart and will pick up the ways to help your self very soon.
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@wolfie34 (26771)
• United Kingdom
29 Jun 07
Thank you for a wonderful, informative and supportive response, much appreciated my friend, I will indeed take note.
@mssnow (9484)
• United States
29 Jun 07
GOOD ON YOU WOLFIE!!!!! I am very proud of you!!It only takes small baby steps to get where you need to be. Keep it up and soon you will see the light and see the light. I love you as a friend and it worries me so when you get down. It makes me wanna cry. But now i am smiling. :) I am behind you al the way My sweet Wolfie *BIG HUGS* If you need me you know where I am.
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@wolfie34 (26771)
• United Kingdom
29 Jun 07
You have been sooooo supportive princess and you are always there to make me smile and laugh and I could never be sad with you x
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@mssnow (9484)
• United States
29 Jun 07
And I always will be :)
@budsr03 (2350)
• Canada
29 Jun 07
That's how my sobriety started! I had the desire and the hope to change. I certainly didn't want to live that way (drinking) or die that way. So Wolfie you have a good start and i wish you all the best in all you do! Take care.
@budsr03 (2350)
• Canada
30 Jun 07
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• Egypt
30 Jun 07
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• United States
1 Jul 07
Good for you, Wolfie. Stay strong, we'll be here for you.
@rosie_123 (6113)
29 Jun 07
Well I am very pleased for you, my friend. They say the first step in conquoring anything, is to actually admit you have a problem in the first place, so I hope this counsellor will bring you the strength, help and comfort you need. Good luck
@wolfie34 (26771)
• United Kingdom
29 Jun 07
Thank you, it's a small step but I've done it and I've got my retreat to look forward to in exactly 5 weeks today!!!!! Zeus sends his love to Lily x
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@rosie_123 (6113)
29 Jun 07
Lily says thank you back:-)) She is lying on my lap having her tummy tickled as I write this! She looks a funny little scrap, as she still has to wear her "helmet" (a "buster" collar with an old pair of tights over the front like a vizor!), to stop her chewing her new leg to pieces!!! She's still purring though!!
@fizzytom (752)
• Maribor, Slovenia
1 Jul 07
Good for you! Even this first step must be big for you and it is a really positive thing for you to do. Good luck on this difficult path! Fiona
@aprilgrl (4460)
• United States
29 Jun 07
Well you took the courage to make that phone call. Thats great hope this one will help you, maybe it's worth the wait but at least you made the call. Good Luck to you my friend.
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@mummymo (23706)
1 Jul 07
That is not a small step my darling but a huge and very brave one! I really don't mean to sound patronising honey but I am so very proud of my wonderful brother! I know it is a while away but at least it is coming from you and that means it is so much more likely to help! I am here if you need me sweets - you know that! Love you xxx
@tinamwhite (3252)
• United States
1 Jul 07
My Dearest Wolfie, I am so proud of you, my friend...this is indeed a big step towards finding a happy balance in your life...please know that I will always be here if you nee a shoulder to lean on.... Stick with it ...it sounds like a great opportunity for you and so close to the house... Peace of mind is priceless...gaining an understanding of why you feel the feelings that you have and learning how to cope with them will dramatically improve your life... I am so happy for you....
@suzieb (188)
• United States
29 Jun 07
Good for you! More people should seek counseling insted getting pills thrown at them. I know a few people who are depressed and they all do different things to fight it. Like exercise (walking, bike riding, jogging) and they say it helps. But most of all they talk to someone. My neighbor goes to her church for counseling, but she does take pills.
@wolfie34 (26771)
• United Kingdom
29 Jun 07
I do go to the gym five times a week which helps, but I need added support.
• United States
30 Jun 07
I hope it helps you, I know I deal with depression from my pre-menopausal state I have been in for the past 10 years and sometimes it brings me really down, I try to take natural herbs to combat the effects, it helps, but not as well as if I was taking the full fledge hormones that my body is craving, though I wish I could take them, I know and my doctor knows that it is not healthy to stay on them and hence does not want to prescribe it to me, nor do I want to pay the high pharmacy prices just for a little relief. I hope you find relief with this new therapy. I learned along time ago, anything is better than nothing at all. Be well, my friend!
@KrisNY (7590)
• United States
30 Jun 07
Good for you- It's good to get help when you need it- the first step is admitting it and then doing something about it. I hope this counselor really helps this time- Keep going until you feel like you are a better happier person- Good luck with this!
@Naomi17 (624)
30 Jun 07
I am so proud of you and i know you will stick with it asking for help is one of the hardest things to do! We will all be routing for you and here if were needed xx
@Jasmijn (145)
• Belgium
30 Jun 07
Congrats. The first step to getting better, is indeed the step of realising you have problems. I hope this works for you.
• United States
30 Jun 07
atleast you aren't in denial and your getting help. Many people won't even admit it so GOOD for you! good luck!
• United States
30 Jun 07
atleast you aren't in denial and your getting help. Many people won't even admit it so GOOD for you! good luck!