Again and Again...
By arvee17
@arvee17 (730)
Philippines
June 30, 2007 12:27pm CST
Night is here again and my worse fear came. Memories flooding my very soul and I can’t even control it. Even as I look at him while he lays asleep, your face taunts me like a shadow overtaking me. Oh, save me from this emptiness, from the solitude that is forsaking me.
I am afraid to not love you but still afraid to forget you. I want to feel alive again. I want to feel my heart pumping so fast, the adrenaline flowing. I want to feel everything again. Should I be taunted by my own shadows? My own guilt and shame? Why do I have to let myself be in such pain? Please answer my questions… Please answer my loneliness….
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@liranlgo (5752)
• Israel
30 Jun 07
Avree such a tremendousness feeling, such an helpless feeling. You will have to live with this fear, which is now so paralysing. It is not easy and it will probably be very slow until it dissloves into somthing that you will appreciate.
But you will do it, and you will feel alive again.
You should try to go with your heart.
But still look if the things in your heart is the real thing for you, or just a fantsy thay you seek now.
I can tell you one thing, it is hard, but everything will be alright.
@kbkbooks (7022)
• Canada
2 Jul 07
I'm so sorry you feel frightened and lonely. I understand that if you went through a hard time with someone in your past, or maybe even in your present, you have many emotions to face about that. You have been hurt, and it was not any fault of your own sweetheart. Remember that there are many people who truly love you. There are many who don't even know you but they understand what you have been through. You don't need to be tortured and taunted by memories always. Message me honey, I think we have many things we could talk about. I want to send you my hugs.
