Ok my turn to vent
By MLLanser
@MLLanser (162)
United States
July 4, 2007 3:50pm CST
Ok, so for those of you who dont know that much about me, I will tell you a little bit. I am single and have been for about 2 years since I left the youngest child's father. This is not entirely a bad thing, since I am very independent and dont like to put up with anyone telling me how to do things. Well, on days like today it really gets to me. I have kids, so I try to keep a strong front for them, but I am depressed and dont want to do anything today. I have no money to go have fun, we spent all the extra money I had at the carnival on Sunday. I have a friend who will be getting off of work soon, and perhaps we can go by her house and grill out, but I am not sure that is going to happen either. I just dont like being alone anymore. I want to have someone to share things with, and I want to feel loved. The last guy I was truly and deeply in love with ended up leaving me for someone else who he married.
I am just bored and sick of the way I am. I am sinking further and further into depression, but cant find a way out of it.
On the bright side, my classes start again on Monday, so that will at least take some of my focus.
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4 responses
@carolscash (9492)
• United States
4 Jul 07
It sounds as though you might need to see a doctor and get some medicine for the depression that you are suffering from.
It is hard sometimes to be alone,but better to be alone than in a relationship that is abusive to you or your children.
Be thankful that you have your children and please take an interest in them and realize that they love you more than any guy who left you. It doesn't have to be a day to spend a lot of money or anything. Just get outside with them and play a game of frisbee or something or just go for a walk with them. Just be sure that you all spend time together. They are the best thing to ever happen to you and you are blessed to have them.
@MLLanser (162)
• United States
4 Jul 07
I know but sometimes it is just hard to go outside and do anything, I just dont have the energy for it. I was outside with them for a little bit today, just kindof sitting watching them. Maybe this weekend we can go play tennis or something.
Thanks for listening, sometimes I just feel so alone and dont know where to turn.
@jillhill (37354)
• United States
5 Jul 07
Vent all you want......you amongst friends! I know how you feel. I raised three kids by myself and money was tight. You have to be very inventive to keep them busy and happy as well as yourself. We would take a walk and stop and get a treat which didn't cost very much..maybe sit down by the lake and just spend time outside. Now that they are grown, it's those memories they talk about all the time. Bike rides, walks, and the little treats we used to share. But it's okay for you to be depressed once in a while. It's the bodies reminder to take care of yourself! Find comfort in being able to talk about it because you recognize that you need to do something.
@simplyshawn (650)
• United States
13 Jul 07
I'm taking a big risk here because I don't really know you at all but here's my suggestion.
Have you ever read any of Joyce Meyer's books? So far I've only read about 1.2 of her books. They are easy to read and understand. It's like she's there talking to you.
After school starts a few friends and I will be getting together to go through her book, Battlefield of the Mind. I've heard loads of good things about this book and I can't wait to get started reading it.
Currently I'm reading her new book about Simple Prayer. I'm sure you think I'm nuts because, when do you have time to read? Well I fit it in here and there and if I wouldn't spend so much time on here, I'd get more reading done too.
I do hope you find someone, I can't imagine being a single mom 24/7. Sometimes I am for a couple days and I don't like it. Keeping busy is good. Maybe you can find some new things to do with your kids where you can meet some new people.
