Bestfriend or Not?

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i happen to have a "bestfriend" who claims, sure, that we're bestfriends. well, i like the idea of having a bestfriend because i thought it means i have someone whom i can confide my inner self with. i thought she would also do the same thing. however, in time, i became instantly aware that we're not anymore communicating.. ok, that's fine. i'm busy, she's busy.. but then when i try to hangout with her, she's completely different now.. like when we hangout, she seems to look faraway like she's looking for someone else.. then she has this disease of telling me that she knows something that i don't.. and when i ask her about it, she won't tell me.. then she tells other people about it.. strangers even.. ok.. then she tells people we're bestfriends. right.. maybe i'm just the jealous type because, ofcourse, since we're bestfriends, we're suppose to be sharing each other's stories and all the other stuff.. but then.. she won't.. and she's telling other people.. i don't get it. when i text her, she says she's busy or she won't reply at all.. then i later found out she's texting her other friends.. and then she tells everyone we're bestfriends.. then she tells me she also has new bestfriends.. then she tells me she knows something that i don't.. and she tells her "new" bestfriends about it but she won't share it with me.. and she tells her new bestfriends that we're bestfriends.. this upsets me because it's like she's calling me her bestfriend just for the sake of having an old bestfriend.. that she could tell the people that she has an old bestfriend.. as if the word "bestfriend" doesn't have any essence to her.. i does to me.. and i'm getting madder and madder by the minute.. excuse me, but am i just making a big deal out of this?