Is your life the way you expected or thought it would turn out?

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For me the answer is a big NO WAY. I never wanted to quit school. I went back and got my GED, but it wasn't the same. I have started and quit college over stupid stuff. My first attempt at school was cut short because of pregnancy. 9 years of fooling around, who would have thunk it was possible to get that way. Second time, I let a man get to me and ended up having to move away. Got pregnant again and here I am. Surrounded by two kids. One never listens and drives me batty. The other one just NEEDS stuff ALL the time. She was just born though and I don't mind so much, well unless I'm trying to potty or get a shower in. lol... I am stuck here at home, bored and being told that if I WANT to babysit for money, I can only have 2 kids... what the heck is the point? There is NO money in watching only 2. Geez. Especially with my bills. Thats another thing. Being saddled with medical bills right at the tender age of 18, with no heath insurance to help foot the bill. No, I envisioned my life one of adventure. I wanted to get an RV and travel around. Stop and work when I needed money and move on when I had enough. See the whole country. Well, I have made valiant attempts to make my dreams come true. I did get out and see all the sites on route 66, all the way to Arizona. Shoot, I should have attempted to make it to California and at least seen the ocean. Instead, I got to see alot of Mesquite and desert and mountains. Beautiful state really. One day I'd like to die there. I'd say be buried, but no one can afford that. Take me all the way there... lol.. Even if I was ashes. I have not given up hope that things can change. Even now I'm looking online for colleges that I can do at home, since childcare and cost of fuel is crazy expensive for a stay at home mom. I'm on the verge of getting married. Still not sure about that. Crazy, went and got the rings and stuff, but sitting here wondering if I done lost my mind. Only because he drives me crazy. And not necessarily in a good way. Its been more than a few years since he has drove me crazy any other way. lol. Still, I attempt to make thing better... I'll keep on doing until I'm gone from this world.