Powerlessness over bi-polar disorder
By christyharts
@christyharts (2)
United States
July 19, 2007 10:05pm CST
I have lived with bi-polar, also known as manic depression for years. I'm mostly in the depressive state, but I have my manic "up" times as well. One day everything will be fine, I have energy to do things, I love everyone. Then the next few months, I'm unhappy, unsocial, moody, and I feel like the world would be better off without me.
My disease became worse after my mother passed away September 2006. I was there when she passed. Then I lost my job, due to depression, in December 2007. I've tried to pull out of it. I have been on Lexapro ever since September, nothing helps. I have not left the house for two weeks now.
The doctor has told me I am now suffering from post traumatic stress disorder. The only thing that actually keeps me going is my 16 year old daughter. I don't even answer phone calls from my other family members.
Does anyone else suffer this bad from this disorder?
I keep my faith in the Lord that He will help me in His time, but I'm tired of living like a recluse.
Any help in GREATLY appreciated!
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3 responses
@AJ1952Chats (2332)
• Anderson, Indiana
26 Nov 07
For what it's worth, I, for one, am very happy that you're here, and I've just invited you to be a friend.
At this time, I'm dealing with the moods of a close friend, and it's funny that you should mention post-traumatic stress syndrome, because I've said that I can't decide if what causes his mood swings is bi-polar or post-traumatic stress syndrome.
I know that he has very good reasons to have the latter.
Are those two connected somehow?
@PurpleTeddyBear (6685)
• Canada
26 Jul 07
Hi christyharts! I too am bi-polar! I had the same type of problem as you where it seemed like 1 day out of 2 weeks would be a great day. I too have lost jobs from the disease and it is very hard to deal with. My moods are very stable now, and I did it all without medication. My whole life changed after marrying the love of my life in March of 2006 and then having our baby a few months later in June of 2006. Those two positives must have gotten rid of a negative somewhere and now I am so much better. Don't get me wrong, once in a while I will have a manic "up" day, and a depressed "really low" day! Overall though I am just ok and having a "normal" mood! I would seriously talk to your doctor though and see about medication options if you feel it is REALLY getting out of control! I basically live for my husband and daughter, they keep me very motivated and help me get through the very low lows. Good luck hun *hugz*
@sid556 (30960)
• United States
20 Jul 07
I dated a man with bi polar. I looked it up and even joined a community on the net to better understand it. It is a very good and friendly community. I haven't been there in a long while but i will try to find it and get back to you. there you could share your experiences with others that really do understand what you are going thru.
