Shopping to feel better... But it doesn't work!!! How much is too much?

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I have lately been shopping everywhere on the internet. And it's gotten worse. I used to go to websites and put all kinds of things in the cart but then the cart would either drop everything because I took too long, or else I'd empty it just when I was ready to checkout. Why did I spend 2 hours shopping through an entire website like Overstock and then just drop it all. I wish it had a "save for later" button. But then, maybe that would get me in worse trouble. The problem I'm having lately is all the "sign up and get this % off of your purchase..." or "sign up and get a $10 bonus offer. I have ALWAYS been skeptical of these things but lately it feels like I HAVE to sign up - something tells me I'll feel better if I do. Sigh... The truth of it is that I don't feeel better. AND, the money just sits in each account and I forget about it because I'm too depressed to figure out how to get it out. Does anyone else do this? I know if I won the lottery that it wouldn't make a difference in how happy I was. I get packages in the mail (from ordering) and I put them aside and forget to open them. So the only good part of it is ordering I guess. I don't want to have a house full of "stuff." But I always have people to buy for and I think I can get ahead of things and buy them now. Only later I find out that it was really not something that person would enjoy! Then I end up giving new clothes to Salvation Army. I don't want to waste money like that and I wish I could get myself to stop shopping just for the fun of it. It's not fun anymore. I just received an email that said I got $10 for a site I thought I was ALREADY signed up on. How do you figure that one out? It's a SIGN-UP bonus and I'm ALREADY signed up?????? I hope, oh geez, I sure hope I didn't sign up as a famiily member or something. no, wait, then it wouldn't have come into that email. MAybe they messed up. Does anyone know what I'm talking about or am I going in circles. Basically, I need to REMEMBER that shopping online is NOT going to makek me happy and REMEMBER that I feel even worse after I've wasted 2 hours shopping and then dropping the cart. It SHOULD make me happy to tell my family about it so they can get $10 too. They would like that, right? One brother thinks any time I email him, it's going to be spam - however, I never email him because the one Christian email I sent to him, I thought he would appreciate. It's too sad that he can't just email me and talk like a real brother. So do you think I'm mad at them and that's why I don't help them out? It's like I'm afraid everyone will get into the same circle I seem to be in. If you don't have a problem shopping like I do then you can will probably appreciate the free $10 but don't do what I've been doing with wasting time shopping and not appreciating what I buy. Ackkkkkkkk http://wwww.ebates.com/doublebonusoffer/index.htm?id=33121677 Someone please write back, I'm on the internet now and I'd like to have some friends. I'm stressed out! Does this sound like some sort of addiction to you? If it doesn't make me happy why do I keep on doing it??? Kristiana