single woman, independant woman

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It seems like I have been too busy pursuing things I really don't want or NEED like that. I think single females, and/or females that are in relationships need to really learn NOT to sell themselves short and SETTLE for something or someone if they are unhappy with it. HOW many females do this??? Are you with him because you WANT TO BE??? NEED TO BE??? Afraid NO one else wants to be with you???? What are the right reasons??? Wrong reasons??? I stayed with my ex out of convienience. We had kids. he was all I knew. I didn't wanna be alone...ect...NOT THE RIGHT reasons. I wasn't happy by a long shot. The thing is, out of 6 years...four, maybe five of them were miserable. And the only reason the first year or so was good was because I was a teenager and probably didn't know any better. Sometimes I think I miss being with him. I just miss being with someone ya know??? because I know in my mind that the relationship was garbage...but it's cool to have someone there on holidays, birthdays, rainy days...ect.... But if I were just to give in to him and be with him because I was lonely, then I'm just setting my self up to be miserable anyway, so I stay single. Singledom is NOT that bad. Not sure if that is a word, but that's how I'm gonna put it... I like that I can go to work, and come home and my stuff is where I left it. If I wanna walk around naked in my house, I can....I like that feeling. I do what I want, when I want, and don't answer to anybody. It's nice. I'm not sure that it would be EASY for me to get used to being ONE half of a couple again. I work, take care of my kids ALL BY MYSELF. I pay my own bills, and have alot of things that most people my age don't. I don't need to depend on anyone, and I like it that way.