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My cousin just killed herself by running a hose from her truck into a window in her home and started the truck. I wasn't close to her, but I can't stop thinking about her parents and sister who I am closer to. My cousin was the 4th person on that side of the family to commit suicide in 30+ years that I know of. Yes, I am shocked that she of all people did it, yes I feel horrible for her parents and sister. BUT I am so pissed off......We went through this same exact thing 18mos ago (was a much uglier way) with another cousin and she knows how much everyone suffered. HOW CAN PEOPLE BE SO SELFISH? Maybe I can't see past the selfishness of it (no she was not mentally ill, nor were the others). Could someone.....anyone give me some insight or their thoughts? I am absolutely shocked, pissed off and dumbfounded.