what if

I would change the way I feel about people, in the fact that I am very wary of strangers and suspicious and cynical, I never used to be this way but after having two mentally abusive relationships and being bullied in life I do prefer my own company and prefer to stay single. If anyone talks to me straight away I think what are they after, or what do they want to be with me for? It shouldn't be that way.

I would be healthy. I have never in my life taken a breath that didn't cause pain, and I've always wanted to know what that felt like. And now I have other problems on top of my breathing problems, I have Meniere's disease and/or possibly something neurologically wrong, and I've been stuck with constant vertigo for over a month. So if I could change anything about my life, I would simply be healthy. =)

I would change my ability to deal with stress. I'm not dealing with it too well at the moment, which is a bit ridiculous really. Why is it ridiculous? I've made the necessary changes to my life before. Had positive results, then let it all slip, back to my old ways. Guess I'd better get on with it then. Thank you for reminding me that I can do anything I want to if I put my mind to it.