MY FAKE BLISS! =c

Philippines
July 29, 2007 9:21pm CST
once i had this "love story" that i thought will last forever but it was a great mistake for believing all that sh*t! everything he said to me made me happy for 4 months but its just sad to know that all were fake bliss because everything was a lie!.... so much for promises like "you're my only one" "i'll never leave you!" and i believed all that, but to be honest those lies made me happy, made me whole and made me believe, but just recently i found out that it was all a lie and his heart still belongs to his "past love".. the times we spent were all magic, it like i'm in heaven but there are those moment too where i have to shed tears just for things to be alright. he was really sellfish, i would really understand him if he just told me everything, i'm a strong believer of love if my love will hinder "what's meant" i will realy him go. it just made me realized how stupid i am to hinder a great love, now i end up being the dumb one and the one that's left behind. i did everything to save "our" love. i cried for weeks, i had sleepless nights but i never heard anything from him and that made me feel more stupid expecting someone to come back but never have any plans to come back to me. but inspite of all the pain i felt and is still feeling... i'm still recalling my fake bliss because that's the only memory i have, that made me aware that i know how to love.
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diannebcrs
@diannebcrs (1549)
• Philippines
30 Jul 07
For me, I don't really call it a fake.. When he was with you, I'm sure you felt that he was sincere and all - and that he loved you so much. He did. I believe that he did love you and thought you two would last forever because you had such wonderful moments together. However, there's just this point when his attention got diverted and he got confused.. I guess he started thinking now whether you two will have a future together, whether you two are compatible based on your personality and interests or not. Perhaps, he realized that he's not comfortable about being with you anymore - although he might still have feelings for you... All the while when he was with you, I believe that he did love you and care for you. I guess he didn't mind your situation or anything else because all he wanted was to be with you. I really think he was sincere about you. It's just that, in time, he got himself confused because he realized that his heart still hammers him about his past love.. But that didn't mean that he never loved you. He did. I hope you'll be okay, cousin. Hehe.. (kaya mo yan, gaw!)
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diannebcrs
@diannebcrs (1549)
• Philippines
30 Jul 07
Furthermore, when you love a person, of course, you make promises to that person - not just to keep him or make him happy but also to allow yourself to fully commit to him. It's kind of like this - correct me if I'm wrong - love and promises actually co-exists. When one of them fades, the other also fades. Therefore, you really can't blame him if he breaks his promises. Because he can't commit himself to you anymore and he goes away, he takes all his promises with him. It's like packing all things and belongings to move away... I feel sad about what you've gone through.. But you have to be strong and do your best to divert your attention elsewhere. You have my prayers. God bless, gaw! :)
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