He came by..
By Marie2473
@Marie2473 (8512)
Sweden
August 1, 2007 10:35am CST
I finally sneaked out of my moms house and went back home to myself and I regret it badly, coz who shows up if not my ex. He came buy to pick up some papers and stayed for a while talking. He told me that he has troubles sleeping and that he wakes up during the night looking for me and when he realises I am not there he feels empty. He says he loves me and that he always will and that he wishes that things were differnt.
I really do not understand him. If he loves ´me that much why wont he tell me whats wrong? Why does he just leave?
Now I am home all alone again - heartbreaken all over. Every time I see him and he leaves it feels like my heart breaks just a little more.
There is so much going on in my life right now and I have no idea how to get through this all and he is making it worse. I do not wanna cut him out of my life coz I love him, but he is making everything worse.
After he left I bursted out crying again and I sent him a textmessage saying that I do not wanna see him for a while, that I also need time to move on and heal. I havent heard anything back yet, but he has never been much of a texter =)
It hurt like hell to send him that message and if I know him at all, I know that it hurted him too, but I cannot live like this anymore....
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8 responses
@sunshinecup (7871)
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1 Aug 07
Oh girl I know it hurts, it's one of the worse pains we can have. But you did good and you did right. The pain will leave, I so promise you it will. It will pass and things will get better. It's just a process we have to go through when our hearts have been broken. Just please know, it will get better, it's hard to see that when you are in the middle of that darn pain, but it will come, it will come.
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@texasclassygal (5305)
• United States
1 Aug 07
Just when you try to stop seeing him, he comes back, does he not speak your language, you need to make it clear to him that you need this time, forget the lame excuses he is coming up with to see you, tell him to either come back or stay away until you tell him to.
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@sjohnson628 (3197)
• United States
1 Aug 07
I too am still heartbroken over my recent breakup with my boy friend. I can't seem to stop thinking about him and wondering what it is he is up to. I want him to come visit me but like you say it just makes the heart break a little more every time he leaves again. I hope you get through this pain quickly as I know it is taking me almost a month now since my break up and it only seems to be getting worse for me. Good luck Marie.
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@Madona1 (2096)
• Gibraltar
2 Aug 07
Hello there, from your current and previous posts, I can tell you both still love each other. But you didn’t mention what cause the break up that we are unable to help you further. Personally I will advise you to find the counsellor to help you out to save the relationship, as you both are still deeply in love. In this life, no one is perfect and everything is possible. Hope you can find the way to fix your life. All the best!
@tinamwhite (3252)
• United States
2 Aug 07
I wish so much that I could stand their and put my arms around you and hug you till all of the pain went away....
I do think that not seeing him or talking to him will be beneficial in the healing process...
I have joined a wonderful online support group that may benefit you..if interested please PM me and I will give you the address...I won't break the rules and name it here...
If you need to talk, I will be here for you,
Tina
@StarofDavid (74)
• United States
1 Aug 07
What was the cause of the break up? Did you guys get a divorce or are you just separated?
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@cloud_kicker_32 (4635)
• United States
2 Aug 07
I for one..am so very proud of you and what you did and said..I know how hard it is to lose a loved one..even when you are still having feelings..hell u may stil have love in theer..but you know whatever is telling you to walk away..is whats right for you..u may just need a break for awhile until u relize what u really want...this stress is so bad for y ou hun..stay away for awhile until u find yourself..and know that in fact you can go on without him,.u have too..and life will get better and you will get stronger..and life wil become much clearer..good luck!
@sid556 (30960)
• United States
2 Aug 07
you are going thru an awful lot with this and your brother as well. you need to protect yourself. You are being very smart here. Your ex is confused and his confusion is only adding to your problems. You did the right thing in asking him not to come around for a while.
