The loss of a child
By tanaclark
@tanaclark (570)
United States
August 28, 2007 3:00pm CST
Have you ever had to live the grief and heartache of losing a child? I lost my child 15 years ago she was 4 months old. She was born early and remained in the hospital through out her life. It has been a long time since I lost her. Yet I still find myself missing her and thinking about her constantly. Especially around this time of year in 11 days it will be the anniversary of her death. Sometimes when I feel sad I hide it because I feel guilty when people ask me whats wrong? I have three healthy alive children here that I love dearly. I shouldn't feel like a part of me is missing. But some strange way I do. I think maybe that is why I am so protective of my babygirl and I spoil her more than I did my other two. She is my first born after the death of my daughter. Is this strange or normal? I would like to hear from you if you have a similar story or just a thought on my discussion.
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@samtaylorskykierajen (7977)
• Canada
29 Aug 07
I have never had to deal with the loss of one of my children and pray this never happens . Children are supposed to outlive their parents . It makes sence that you feel like part of you is missing as everytime you have a child this is a part of you and even though you still have three other children they are unique and different in their own way . No child can replace another child in your heart . As a parent our heart is big enough to have love for all our children and if one of them is missing this would cause a hole in your heart that was missing . I can't imagine the pain you go through when you think of your baby and what you must go through with this loss . I am so sorry to hear of your loss and it doesn't matter how long ago it was this is a loss that one would never just get over . Your baby will always be in your heart forever . I would consider all that you feel to be very normal and would imagine that if you told family and friends why you were upset they would all completely understand . Take Care .
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@Springlady (3986)
• United States
28 Aug 07
I have never lost a child, but I have lost someone I loved very much. I know it doesn't compare to losing your own child and I'm sure that is a parent's worst nightmare. I'm so sorry that you lost her.
Know that she is with the Lord now and she is fine! I know that you want to hold her again and see her, but she is with her heavenly Father. I don't know why God calls some Home so very early, but He does have a reason.
May you have the comfort that only comes from the Lord!
God bless you!
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@tanaclark (570)
• United States
29 Aug 07
Thank you and I think knowing she is in a better place is the only reason I have made it this far.
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@starmashgate40sg177 (252)
• United States
29 Aug 07
you know come to think about it, i never realized it was so close to september. And then May comes back around. But you know I think youre doing okay for the things that have happened. specially since rachelle. Love you tana. always.
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@mekala (10)
• India
29 Aug 07
I do agree how difficult it is to accept this state. it is easy for me to tell but since it has happened and not only that u have other children to take care.Think of their lives and put forth your fullest affection and effort to bring them up. This is very normal to shower the affection upon the child who is born next. but still feel your over affection and care should in no way spoil her life. So take charge and have it in your mind that u always want your child to become a good human being and for that give her the affection and love with little strictness. She should be made to know when she can ride u and when not to.
@dreamer75 (7)
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29 Aug 07
My husband lost a child when she was 8 months old 11 years ago, there are certain things he still cant watch or hear without crying. When our 2 children were born i was not allowed to take my eyes off them, he was terrible and although i already had a child he made me feel like i didnt know what i was doing.
I couldnt imagine losing one of my kids so you have my love for ever having to go through it, i dont think you should hide how you feel,she will always be a part of your life as jasmine is with us, my youngest dont know but will when they are old enough. let yourself cry whenever you need to, you deserve to feel how you feel and no one can say otherwise
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@shanuri123 (126)
• India
29 Aug 07
When my child gets heart i feel so bad. when you lost your child how painful it would be. but thank god you have three healthy alive children. be happy with them always.