Why does some people like living on the edge....

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I have an aunt(my mother's younger sister)who as far as I can remember have led a dangerous life. That life revolved around drugs, alcohol and different partners. But there was a point in her life, that she completely changed when she met the man she thought she'll be spending her life with. And they had a daughter whom she loved very, very much. Then in one, same day, she lost them both in a drowning accident. After that tragic incident, her life had become much, much worse than before she had a family. She had numerous suicide attempts and there was one that she almost died. But still, she was given the chance to live. And still from this day, she keeps on living like that. Drugs and alcohol. She did stop having relationship with different men but she's now involved in an abusive relationship. That's why I ask this. For my aunt, did she really like to live that way or she had no choice. Maybe in all that's happened in her life, she wanted to go so numb that she won't have to feel the pain and she won't have to remember her bitter memories of the family she had lost. I kept asking my mother why my aunt is like that. Her life is so turbulent that you sometimes tend to feel afraid to be that close to her. But I kept going back to a certain moment in our lives when she had been a good aunt to us. That time was when she still had her family. That was the only time, and the last time that I saw her truly happy.