I Don't Know My Father

Philippines
September 17, 2007 9:02pm CST
I have watches and heard so many stories of someone who doesn't even see or know his or her father. Basically, the reaction of those who heard about that kind of story is..." well, that really happens..." or "that's his destiny...". It hurts beacause I am one of those maybe millions of kids around the world who doesn't know their fathers. When I was young, that hope inside of me that someday I will know my father is...actually until now that I am 26 years old, is still a blank. I thought it's too late. Nine year ago I have found that my father is gone. His name is BERNARD BUENAFE... somebody knows him? All I know is his name.I don't even know his face or anytihng about him. You think unfair right? And to all those who have the same situation from my case, let us run to our Father in heaven. GOD has a purpose for everything I know. So many questions behind that I am hoping to have answers before it will be too late again. A relative from my father's side informed me that I have half sisters and brothers so I still don't lose hope to know my earthly father...atleast to know if he knew my name, or his favorite food, his dreams, hobbies and others... maybe they know him. Yeah it's crazy to aim to know someone who is already dead but he is my father so it's crazier not to even think to know him. But even if my earthly father is gone, I still respect and love him. Besides my FATHER in heaven never abandoned me. It wasn't easy to grow old without him but I accepted it. My FATHER I knew, thought me of thinking that I am special, that HE created me because He has a purpose for me. (Ephesiansn 1:4) Anyone who knows my half sisters and brothers please inform them about me...I am hoping to meet them to complete my missing pieces of puzzle...see I have big puzzle.
1 response
meholl
@meholl (510)
• United States
18 Sep 07
I know that the feelings of loss are great. I have 2 sons and their father doesn't want anything to do with them. That is his choice, and I can't change his mind. My boys feel like it is their fault that things are this way. I don't know as though meeting half siblings will complete your puzzle, but may add more to the puzzle. Your real father has passed on, and that is their father too. This may puzzle them as to having a half-sister that they do not know, and they may not want to know you. They may not understand why your father did this, or they might know why. I feel that the best thing you could do for yourself, is to accept that you will never know your father in the physical sense, but that someday you will know him. I am not trying to be harsh or hurtful, just honest
leng_leng
@leng_leng (42)
• Philippines
18 Sep 07
Glory to GOD that someone is next to me... I believe what you said. Honestly I got hurt so many times thinking not to see any of my blood extension on my father side. But just to let you know Mam that I am always on my humble feet to know my brothers in GOD's time. My Mom doesn't know that I am doing a way to atleast know the history of my blood but I know what you're feeling right now is as the same as to my Mom. We the siblings are innocents yet why is that we are the one who are paying the debt...? I don't know. But I pray for you Mam. Thank you for taking time to read my article. But if still have time please visit http://www.angelfire.com/art/aileen for my autobiography. It was not edited long time but I believe you will surely understand me. Once again, thak you.