Any body got the same experience?

@lynnchua (3412)
Singapore
October 10, 2007 1:50am CST
I got depression years ago. Seen doc for afew months and I hate it. The doc gave me pills to so-call relax, it make me feel like everything become so-slow. I'm slow in everything, like thinking, reaction and emotion. My mind feels empty. When I walk I felt floating. I really hate it, so I stopping taking my pills. It's quite ok then, but if I feel really upset about things, I feel like dying. I don't dare to tell my family about it. Anyone here got the same experience, that you would like to share with me?
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12 responses
@muscare (3068)
• Australia
10 Oct 07
My wife suffers from depression, and it took a lot of trial and error before her psychiatrist found the right medication for her. Certainly if the one you are on makes you feel too bad, tell your doctor. My wife use to be on so many different medications at once, and felt the way you did most times, and all she wanted was to sleep the days away. Don't put up with the way you feel, talk it over with your doctor, be prepared to try a different medication, hopefully he'll find one that works for you relatively quickly.
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@lynnchua (3412)
• Singapore
10 Oct 07
Hi muscare, thanx for the advise and encouragement. Hope that your wife will get better soon. I'll seek my doc for advise too. Thanx again.
@muscare (3068)
• Australia
11 Oct 07
My wife is a lot better than she used to be, it's more under control, and she sees her psych every 2 months. She still has off days, but no real black days, which she says has a lot to do with the support she has. Thanks. Take care, and I know it's easier said than done sometimes, but try to keep smiling!
@lynnchua (3412)
• Singapore
12 Oct 07
Hi muscare, I will remember what you said. Thanx for the advice.
@wotfpatty (2065)
• United States
10 Oct 07
I don't have that sort of reaction but I do have low grade depression and anxiety (HIGH grade anxiety). I also don't like pills. However, if you feel as bad as you say, about dying and all, you really need to try a different medication. Sometimes it takes a few tries to find one that works for you and then the sun comes out and the burden of feeling bad is much lighter. My sister tried four antidepressants before she found one that made her feel better. She was getting even more depressed because nothing was working and she was feeling worse. Then she started to notice she was feeling better. Now, she is fine. Not zombie-ish and not slow. She is always on the go and feeling good. I envy her! But I am coping fine with other methods since I don't have severe depression. I wish you luck. Life should be enjoyed and, if you really feel down, please try another medication. They can literally change your life!
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@lynnchua (3412)
• Singapore
10 Oct 07
Hi wotfpatty, thanx for the response. Great to know that, you are right, maybe I should try something else. Glad to to in mylot and knowing people like you guys that give me encouragement.
• India
11 Oct 07
I know al of us in some time of our lives feel low and if the feeling is too extreme we might go into depression. But at that moment the most important thing is to keep yourself calm and try to see only the positive side of everything. Read motivational books and speak to people who you think might motivate you and support you. In times of these tests, one who always stays at your side is your family. Stick to them and they will pull you out of all troubles.
@lynnchua (3412)
• Singapore
15 Oct 07
Hi Trialrun, Thanx for the response. I'll try to think positive.
@kitty1234 (1476)
• United States
10 Oct 07
You need a medication change! I also had different medications before we hit on the right one. When you feel like dying, your depression is serious and needs medication. Keep trying there are so many differnt brands on the market it is just trial and error until they find the one that is right for you. I am now on Lexapro and I can function and am happy! Good Luck and give your doctor another try.
@lynnchua (3412)
• Singapore
10 Oct 07
Hi kitty, I try to talk to my doc, thanx for the advise. Glad that you are fuctioning well and feeling happy. Thanx for the advice.
@st091127 (114)
• China
20 Oct 07
I was very depressed one years ago, and even did some extreme thing which did harm to my parents .I think it's a tough times.I never go to see any doctors, even though my parents once suggested which I refused. I don't know wether the pills are good for our health and depression. I think the best way to be better is to talk with your friends, try to walk out instead of closing the door.
@lynnchua (3412)
• Singapore
20 Oct 07
Hi thanx for sharing, hope you will get well soon.
• Taiwan
12 Oct 07
Try to pray and concentrate on what the lord really wants you to be. I, too was depress of a lot of things, but when that time comes i just pray hard and if you just open your heart and give him the chance to be inside you, i think things will work out just fine. It really works! Open up girl!
@lynnchua (3412)
• Singapore
15 Oct 07
Hi jackiespn, Thanx for the response.
• United States
10 Oct 07
I was diagnosed at the age of 11, and let me say that those pills are the worst things ever. I took those pills for years and they almost ended up killing me. You do not want to know how bad my insides are, how many foods I have had to give up, and how much I have had to spend on hospital visits. Guess what my ultimate solution was to getting out of it, working, writing, and just doing what I wanted to do and felt like doing. I changed my diet, gave myself reasons for being alive and living, and just told myself to live everyday as if it were your last.
@lynnchua (3412)
• Singapore
12 Oct 07
Hi rogue, Thanx for the response. Myabe keeping busy is another way out.
@wisconsin26 (3859)
• United States
10 Oct 07
I've been depressed for awhile but never really did anything about it I deal with the days as they come.. I have NEVER thought about hurting myself though.. I cry and it makes me feel better, I alone most of the day by myself and that helps alot too, cause I too want to be left alone and have no one bother me.. But my other half does come home for lunch which is nice and than the rest of the time again i am alone until i go pick up my son.. I guess i am not deeply depressed but depressed.. I think what you should do is talk to you husband/Boyfriend and tell him what's going on and than that way they can give you a break when you need one.. And or keep taking your medications and go back and see your doctor and tell him or her what it's really doing to you... What ever medication your on might not be the right one for you.. Just my oppion!
@lynnchua (3412)
• Singapore
12 Oct 07
Hi wisconsin, thanx for sharing. I wanted to be left alone too, but I can't. I have got two kids at home to look after. My daughter goes to school in the morning, so I still have my son at home. When my son goes to school, my daughter came back from school. I just change my medicine after all the advise. I hope it work well, thanx again.
@moirax23 (317)
• Malta
10 Oct 07
I know of a similar experience. I suggest you continue taking the pills if the doctor prescribed them for you. Keeping it from your family won't help it's better to tell someone because they may understand your feelings better if you're not showing them by taking pills.
@lynnchua (3412)
• Singapore
10 Oct 07
Hi moirax, thanx for the advise, I think I'll try to talk to my family and let them know how I feel. Thanx alot.
@azimsay (543)
• India
10 Oct 07
When we know about any one have same experience we feel clad.We discus about same thing,and be happy.That person also become happy.
@lynnchua (3412)
• Singapore
10 Oct 07
Hi azimsay, thax for the response. I'm quite happy today. Knowing that there is still people who cares. Thanx.
@Margajoe (4747)
• Germany
12 Oct 07
Hi, Yes I have the same experience. Last year the docters finally gave it a name. That did help me alot. Seems I have had a depression my whole life. At least from my 9 years on. It´s caused by childhood trauma. Destiny depression. I always new something was wrong, and wanting to die could be there one day and the next day I would wake up and think, wow life is great. Since I have been taking medication, I don´t feel like I want to die anymore. I feel like it is time to stand up for myself. I am not crazy, nor are you. Just need a little help. Other people take a drink, we need medication. I did not tell my familly untill 3 months after taking the medication.After 2 months my parents were actually listening to me, taking my advise. Telling me I am finally growing up.(I am 41, was 40 then)People in the stores were all very friendly. People talked to me asked me questions. Believe me, I learned something. It was not the other people who blocked me out. I blocked the other people out. With the medication I learned to not be afraid of other peoples reactions. It is my life , I am allowed to be myself. Finally. Though I must say after 6 months, I thought I could stop my medication, the dokter said we could try it. But, about 4 months later I realized it won´t go away. Dokter agreed, because I have had this problem so long, it cannot just go away. But, if you are young it can , with help from other people. When I told my parents, they were amazed, they could not say anything. Because they had seen the change. By the way, the first 2 to 4 weeks the medicine has by affects. Try not to focus on it. Eat well. Drink lots of water. And occupie yourself with other things. It will all get better. Believe me. I have been there. And still am there. And I have a better look on life. I actually can enjoy myself. So can you.
• India
10 Oct 07
hi i can understand your problem,try to be happy rof any slmall reasons try not to expect much from the people around u.u beleave in yourself u must be having some talant that others may not have be happy by having tht talent.i also sometimes depress when i see people laughing around me n when ther r happy and i m not happy.but then i think of those people those are more sad then me and then i feel better.think you are the best n the world is made for u n look at the things as they are and not the way you are.best of luck
@lynnchua (3412)
• Singapore
12 Oct 07
Hi mustafabadri, thanx for the response. The thing is that I don't care about things happening around me. Don't bother about what people do or say, just like to stay in my tiny little world.