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Me and my ex have been broken up for almost a month..because of things that happened in the past between us I had a bunch of insecurities, and lil trust in him. So he broke up with me then because he said he didnt want to hurt me anymore. But it hurts more to not be with him..I want to go back to the real me..the one that has no insecurities, and faith and trust in him. And I will go back to that way. He says I cant change, but I'm not changing really, Just going back to real me. Right now we still live together for the sake of our daughter so she can see him because he works 3 jobs. I give us till after New Years to try and fix things and maybe get back together or I'm going to move back in with my mother. why so long? Because my mom is unsure if she's going to lose her house right now and I dont want to move twice and I kinda wanna ease Noelia into it by spending more nights at my moms in case we do have to move instead of just getting up and going and her only seeing daddy maybe once or twice a week ya know. He tells me he loves me and cares about me, but he isnt in love with me he doesnt think. And he still shows affection towards me. Like kisses on the cheek, hugs, lets me lay on him when we're watching tv. stuff like that. But he sleeps in another room and I go in there every morning to wake him up for work and lay with him for awhile and he doesnt say anything, just holds me so i can actually sleep a lil and get some rest. But he says he cant be with me, and he dont want to because he doesnt want to hurt me anymore and he doesnt think hes in love with me. But its really hurting a hell of a lot more not being with him. What should I do? Think? Anything? I need a vacation lol