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I have this bad habit of listening with my headphones really loud that I feel that I'm starting to hurt my eardrums. I am quite sensitive to minute sounds, probably I'm just one of those highly sensitive people who can hear a lot of stuff at the same time. But this bad habit of mine happens everytime I can hear people talking that psychologically affects me, thus, my defense mechanism is to deafen myself...literally. Afterwhich, I'd feel bad for hurting myself. I really should stop this bad habit. I guess this is just a coping mechanism just like smoking a cigarette to feel better or even drugs for that matter. I don't smoke or do drugs thus, I deafen myself. But I realize they somehow can be in one category...one that hurts oneself. Well, how do I cope when I can be too sensitive, I guess a decision to be not that sensitive at times or I'd rather skim to channel the energy outward, or release it through music. I gotta learn to play the violin (my dream instrument to play) sometime soon.:)