i feel restricted.

I understand what you mean. You need not voice out your opinions there since they are a cult. But what you can do is, rather write down your thoughts or blog them on the net. There are other ways of expressing your thoughts. Even, I have experienced the same thing. Even though I was born in a Hindu family, and I was brought up by my uncle, I loved Christ very much, but he used always forbid me from worshiping Christ. But, for me Christ and Krishna have been the same. So just follow your heart and be patient till you finish your school and then wait for the right time and place to express all your opinions and thoughts. Till then, if you feel you don't have the freedom, then keep writing them down.

Yes I know what you mean! Its not a good learning environment when you can't discuss the subject openly. I appreciate your inquisitive mind. The Catholic Church does not encourage open minds, rather they insist on learning by rote. (memory without thought of the meaning)This has been going on for 2000 years and many Catholics are seeing the light.(as you are) There are alternatives! Next time you're in a book store check out the books on Spirituality. There are many roads to Heaven!