How much it hurts u ?

I admit, it has been 11 months. My mom passed away and it has been the worst feeling in the world. Days I feel like I am walking around like a zombie. Nights are sad for the memories of us staying up late watching movies, or just talking. It is an awful feeling, and it has almost been one year, I don't think we ever stop feeling the pain of a major loss. Something, or some days make you think of that person, and the hurt starts all over again, the feeling of you know you will never hear their voice again, or see them again, can't hug them etc; it's a very hard thing to go through.

2nd rship of mine hurt me so deep. I need 6 - 12 months to recover. the world such gone, the dream broke away, no life and no spirit. just a dizy world I faced each day. My collage study crash and I could not do anything except trap on sadness. 3rd of mine: more bad but I could recover very soon. shorter than before. I learn how to except what that has gone, I learn how to heal my heart as fast as i could, learning to enchan heart by souldivans and learning to be wise to face life. that's better thing than keep ourself to the dark side of the problems. here one of way to get recover very soon. I write some spell and turn it into positif one. u may visit to my discussion that called spellsinger, spellhowler and warcry. I just move some of it from my FS. transfer ur pain with me, share it I'll try to make some spell for you....hopefully it could help u recover from your hurts.........

It's so sad to know that you are in a terrible situation right now. I understand how you feel, it feels like somebody stabbed you in your heart or someone is squeezing your heart... you are wishing there could have been a medicine that could cure or atleast lessen the pain you have, you are hoping that you'll wake up one morning that evrything is already ok, the sleepness night, ocean tears... Don't worry oryx, just have faith time will heal your wound. You need to accept to let go. Evrything will be fine. God speed!