Do you mind?
By huilee
@huilee (1005)
Singapore
November 12, 2007 11:08pm CST
I have so many doubts in my mind now...
Everything is in a swirl...
Sometimes i think im too petty, sometimes i really cannot differentiate between the right and wrongs...
Its a small matter, but i just cant get everything out of my head...
I have a bf... I love him and he loves me...
Thats simple...
But yah, i mind his past... I dun reli noe if i mind bout his past gfs or i care too much?
Like, lets say, he used to put his ex's gf on hi5 or friendster... But he nv bothers to put my pictures in any stuff... He still loves me... But why do i feel less important compared to the other girls, the other ex gfs...
Its petty of me... I tried ignoring, tried faking not knowing it... Cried over it a thousand times... Have sleepless night...
Its a small problem...
But i noe my bf's character thats why i feel less important...
we have been together for almost two years... we share every single moment and we have been pretty frank to each other... He noes about my problems and tried assuring me... But each time i see his friendster, his files, his stuff... I feel so sad...
Everything brings back memories of someone else... But not me...
=(
ANyone feeling the same? Or is it only me? So petty?
4 responses
@milkfish (371)
• Philippines
13 Nov 07
If I were in shoes, I think i will also feel a bit jealous why his exes has pictures on his frienster account and none of you. What is his explaination on this? But if he assures you of his live and you have no doubt on it, then rest on his love, as they say. Forget the past, what is important is the present.
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@lucky_witch (2707)
• Philippines
17 Nov 07
Well, I had the same feeling as yours... I felt less important than his past... but felt loved at the same time.
Sometimes its hard to understand, why he cant gave me the same importance as he did to his ex...or I should say that I am expecting more than he did with his ex. I dont know if that could be measured but I could feel it hurting a bit... Is he not proud of me? Am I less pretty? Did he loved her more than he love me now? He knows all about what I feel but the saddest part though he keeps on assuring me... he still not doing anything...
Most if not all, Women by nature wants to feel that they are unique, that they are special from the others... we want to feel it, we want to see it... But men thinks differently. They do not often see what we want... and though they see... they dont understand. Its because they dont have problem like this with women... by nature women are emotional... we tend to show more...
the best way that you can do...is to talk to him directly... ask him the reasons why he keeps on depriving you the things that could make you feel secure... then you would understand him... and he could understand you...and see that it means a lot to you...
@juenshia (25)
• China
13 Nov 07
Dot take it too much I think. There is no need to think about his past,it is his history, is has happened, we can not control it. I think the most important it now, when you are lovers.
I used to care about my bf's history, and I found that make both of us to be very unhappy.So, I dont take too much about it now.That make both of us to be more happy.By the way, we have been together for more than 3 years.
Remember, you are not petty. Be more mind opened.Be more happy.
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@huilee (1005)
• Singapore
14 Nov 07
Yesh, i agree it is history... No idea why it bothers me so much... Have been trying to keep myself occupy... But yah, sometimes, it just doesnt works...
Indeed, it mades us unhappy and quarrel often, im trying now... Really trying hard not to make everything hard...
Yesh, hope things will carry on the better way...
Thanks ya and have a good day ahead...
