children starting adult life

this is one of my fear. i am still singel as of now. but sometimes i thought to myself that it's not really easy to be parents. i thought about my mom and hw she felt about us when she was raising us. did she have a hard time adn did she feel that we are ungrateful to her now. that is why i try so hard while i am not year married to be good to my mom. i really don't want to see my own children someday not listening to me and are very distant from me. i know that will be really terrible and painful to any mothers in the world. i believe that we should really honor your parents. if even i will have children that will treat badly and will not really obey me, i will just have to strong i guess in disciplining them and teaching teh right path. i will try my best to support them and correct them along the way and hopefully that they will know the value of what i am doing to them and that they will be able to appreciate whatever hardship and sacrifices i am doing for them. i will really have to children that will love me and give some affection to me. i really don't want children that are so distant and i will rarely see and will just spend their time with their friends. i will just be patient with my children and still love them in case that they will not love me back. hopefully that my future partner will support me and love me more when that kind of things happen in our family. but in my family, i really try to love my parents. sometimes are so critical in whatever we do. they don't really approve always of what we do in life. i really don't talk and stay quiet and respect my parents and i don't distant my self from them. i still value them and show them my love and spend my time with them at home when i am not really working. but sometimes they are so vocal and they spew out so many hurful and demeaning words that will really insult me to the bones. i just try to show them that i am upset that i don't think that they are doing the right thing by insulting and telling that i am nothing. i hope that kind of parents will not really hurt their children and say so many bad words to their children that will cause their children to stay away or have some distance from them. i believe that parents should not really so strict on children or else they will rebel. despite our some problems with our family i stll get alone with my parents. i still love them and i have no plans of leaving them. i will still be there for them when they need me. i believe that they still deserve my love despites their shortcomings. but if i will have children of my own, i will not imitate those wrong thigs that they did to, i will just imitate those beautiful things that i have learned from them. i really don't know if my children will still love and be with me if i will do the same thing for them. i will have to make sure that they will have all my love and my all understanding. i will be there for them to support them and not really to keep watch on everything that they will do. i will not really dictate anything on them. i will just support them and tell them some advices. i will give some space from them. i will not really expect perfections from them. i will just be there for them even though they are wrong or rigth. i will be their parents always. and i will try to avoid saying words that will hurt their feelings and destroy their beliefs in them selves. i think parents should build the confidece oft heir children and not destroy them. i believe that parents should love children and their children should love them too. love should be always in the family. though here in my country that there are lots of parents who will abuse their children sometimes sexually and some times hurting physically when they are still too small to protect themselves, i believe that there are still lots of good parents that will protect their children and will really see to it that their children will live a comfortable lives.

I just feel that I've been used to be alone .My mom always dosen't take much care of me ,she thinks that I shoud learn to be a strong-minded girl,and do things all by myslef.I used to hate that ,I was always envying other friends that their mother loved them so much.But now,I think I should thank my mom .