Could I be an alcoholic??

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I am wondering if I am an alcoholic. I find myself drinking whenever I get upset these days. It calms me down and makes me feel better. I don't think that using alcohol to make myself feel better when I get upset is a good thing. For instance, I just had a fight with my husband. The details of the fight are not important. What is important is that when he left to go help my dad, I went straight to the kitchen and pour myself about 2 inches of dark rum into a glass and then topped it off with some Dr Pepper. I didn't sip it, I drank the whole thing down in under 5 minutes. I didn't want my son to see me and I wanted to make sure it was gone BEFORE my husband got back. I even washed the glass out. I didn't really think about what I was doing until I was done doing it and now I am worried that I might be turning into an alcoholic. I looked at the rum bottle and it is almost empty. We have had that same bottle of rum for almost 3 years unopened and now it is almost gone. Same with the scotch. I drank some scotch yesterday after fighting with my mom. I checked out the fridge and we have 3 bottle of white wine and several wine coolers. We even have a few bottles of red wine. I just realized that we have more alcohol in our house right now than ever before. When we got married, a single bottle of wine might sit for a year or more before we opened it and now....well, I drank a whole bottle of white wine by myself the other night while I was at home alone. I didn't just throw the bottle in the trash, I rinsed it out and took it to our recyle bin. It was like I was hiding the fact that I drank it. Should I look into AA or what? I am actually really worried about my behavior regarding the consumption of alcohol lately. It isn't like me to drink so much so often.