Domestic Abuse (so important you must read)

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When I first met him he was all I had ever wanted in a man. Life with him seemed so great! Then everything changed. It started out small, little bruises on my wrists from him holding onto me too hard. Bad names he would call me. If another man looked at me this of sourse was my fault, then I was a #@$%# if I looked or smiled back just to be friendly. Soon it got worse, a broken nose, choking, even burning my hair with lighters and matches. Not only the hair on my head...as if I did not shave down there he would burn that too. One day I had to go to work. He did not want me to go. He followed me out of the house. I got into my car and locked the doors, he jumped on the hood of my car and held on. I started to drive not to work to the police station. I thought that if I pulled up to the police station of course they would come out wondering why there was a man on the hood of my car. However there was a stop sign, so I slowed to a stop. It all happened so fast he reared back on his knees and bam, his fist went threw my windshield and I flet his grip on my neck. It tightened and suddonly my world drifted to black and white... this was it I was going to die. Then I felt a tug at my throat and his grip released. A man was knocking on my drivers side window. "Hey lady open the door, you ok? Open the door your safe now." I startled my self as I choaked out the word no. I did not open that door until the police arrived. After this he promised me he would get help so I took him back. The last time I would ever take him back. A few weeks later he beat me so severly in the head that to this day I have a hard time concentrating, I have memory loss as well as fine motor skill problems. He also stabbed me in the leg twice with a kitchen knife. He stayed home for days from work to "help me recover". When he finally had to go to work or get fired I phoned the police. That day in court he was sentenced to one year in prison but was released on good behavior in only four months. As the sheriff escorted him out of the court room he looked at me and said with rage in his eyes. "I will devour in killing you, I will devour in killing the kids. I say devour because after I kill you I will consume you so I can make sure you will always be a part of me". People always ask why did you stay with him so long? I was afraid for my kids and my own life, he would always tell me that if I left him he would find us and kill us. Even go to the kids school and kill them if he had to. My kids and I have since moved far away, but when I drop them off at their new school I am always watching for him, same as when I pick them up. At night when I lock my doors I am still afraid he will break in. When I sleep at night I wake up thinking he is in the room with me. Please if you or someone you know is in an abusive relaionship get help now. Even if it is just small abusive behavior it will get worse! Seek out an abuse hotline and call them, look up help on the internet. DO NOT STAY!!! I was a survivor! Some people get out of a relationship the way I did, and others get out only by death. Love yourself, get out before it is too late.