who can help me translate my Chinese Composition into English?--"the first tear"

I drop my first tear in my university. Beside when i was a little kid, when my mom beat me up whenever i didn't obey, didn't listen to whatever my mom told me, I never drop my tear since ever. But this time really really upset and sad. it's not because im being rejected by her, it's because im don't have the potential and ability to make her love me. Although im already drop my first tear, i will never have the will to give up again. Because of my love towards her, i never set my heart to other girl around me. Maybe in our lifetime, there wasn't many girl who we really will love and appreciate, maybe we only will love and appreciate 1 girl in our lifetime. I will feel happy whenever i have a girl who is worth to love and appreciate with me. Chance and hope is what you have in your hand. stand up and be yourself again when failure happen. take a rest when you are tired. if it is worth to used up your whole lifetime to achieve something that you really wan, don't and never say "give up"....and.... i will never upset again. -hopefully my translation can help you all. sorry for some grammar and spelling error-

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Hello, you know what is your problem you need a translator, because her in mylot not all chinese and we cannot read or understand what you mean.,