I am back!
By mummymo
@mummymo (23706)
December 22, 2007 7:31am CST
To all my friends both old and new here on mylot I just want to let you know that I am now trying to get back online more after a long absence!
As many of you know I suffer from chronic back and leg pain and have mobility problems - I had back surgery in May which helped before things got worse instead of better. I have been compromised severely with mobility etc and all of this resulted in me having a bit of a nervous breakdown a few months ago - although I am glad to say that with the help of family and good friends I am now starting to feel stronger and recovering!
I want to thank all of my special friends here who have helped and supported me through some very difficult times and would like to apologise for neglecting you all so much. I have tried to keep up to date with reading your posts even though I have not really been replying - I am going to be doing my best to do so now!
To anyone out there who is suffering pain of any kind , be it physical , mental or emotional I wa\nt to wish you a speedy route back to health and happiness - believe me , not very long ago I was drowning in darkness and could see no road out apart from suicide and now there is light at the end of the tunnel and I can see things in colour now around me! God bless you all as he has me - with a wonderful family and friends who show you what life is all about! xxxx
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@raydene (9871)
• United States
22 Dec 07
Honey I am so proud of you..
You are an inspiration to all of us..
and you will help someone here that reads this..
Someone is struggling and now being told that there is a light at the end...
They can see you are the proof and this post may be the thing to help them hang in there until the sun comes back up for them...
Darling it brings tears to my eyes to have you back..
I have missed you soooooooooo much
Big hugs to the dear ones at your home...My prayers are will you..
xooxoxxoxoxoxo
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@PurpleTeddyBear (6685)
• Canada
22 Dec 07
I agree with you 100% raydene, she really is an inspiration to us all, and she will definitely help give someone else struggling hope that their is a light at the end! XoXoXo
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@mummymo (23706)
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22 Dec 07
Mom you have no idea how much that means to me - to hear you of all people say that! If any one feels even a little better I would be over the moon!
I have missed you so much but I am determined to keep my strength up and get on each day - even if only for a little while! Hugs and kisses - the kids and David are sending hugs and kisses too - just don't tell anyone Niamh is sending them as she is very strange about giving people kisses and they may get jealous as she wants to give them to you! xxx
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@wolfie34 (26771)
• United Kingdom
22 Dec 07
Mummymooooooooooooooooooooooo! Welcome back, we have truly missed you! We have both been in a deep dark tunnel and at times we wonder if there's any light at the end of it, it's an uphill struggle and I know just what it's like, although certainly not to the same extreme as you have. I can give you a big big hug my sis, and want to wish you and your lovely family a fantastic Christmas, if you need me you know where I am, goes without saying xxxxxxxxxx
@mummymo (23706)
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22 Dec 07
We have both been through our struggles haven't we sweety? You have been an inspiration in the last few months - I keep remembering how dark things were for you and how strong you were and were able to force yourself through things and out of a bad situation! I will always be here for you my darling little brother - I tried to text you but then I got the message you had changed your number - I'll email you soon and catch up! Love and Merry Christmas sweety! xxx
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@Lakota12 (42600)
• United States
22 Dec 07
WElcome back!!!!!
I didnt know what had happened to you as I didnt know it all I remeber ya having the operation and that was it soglad you are well onthe way to recovery and that you get stronger every day!.
and am hoping the little emails I sent you have help in some small way .
WE all have to heal in our own time and our own way with lots of help from freinds and family my prayers are with you hugs and blessings
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@mummymo (23706)
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22 Dec 07
Sweety of course those emails helped and I am very grateful - I just feel as though I have neglected you at a time when you needed some more support - So sorry about that sweety! I am going to a pain clinic on Christmas Eve and hopefully they will be able to alter my medication so that the pain is as minimal as possible - that is the best I can hope for right now! Hugs straight back at you sweety - I have been thinking of you and kept you in my prayers! xxx
@Darkwing (21583)
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23 Dec 07
Ohhhh, Sweetheart... I wasn't here for you, I was so busy, but thank goodness others were, for we all love you and would miss you terribly should you leave us.
I'm so glad you found some great, caring friends to help you through this time, and I'm sure they won't want thanking for it, because you are the type of person to whom we all warmed, and grew to love. I had no inkling you had sunk to such a low ebb.
You have my e-mail address, should you ever feel the need to talk... please don't hesitate. I'm always here for special people in my life, and you are one of them.
Now, you must go and have a really fun time with your family over Christmas. They all love you and will want to see your smile... and please don't let things get to you that much in future without shouting for help. I love you, my friend, and over Christmas, I'm going to light a candle and send healing energies to you, in the hope that your pain will ease and life improve for you once again. Take care, special person.
Brightest Blessings, in perfect love and perfect light, on you, and your family. xoxoxox
@mummymo (23706)
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23 Dec 07
Darkwing honey I know you would have been there in a second if I needed you - you are a special person! Thank you so much for your love and your caring sweety - it means more than you could know! I feel bad I didn't email you but hey you know I will not lose touch again! Thanks for the candle and the energies - you know I appreciate them so much! I promise to be a good girl over Christmas , I really do! We are having a very quiet day at home with some special friends popping in during the day so I don't have much choice! lol Have a wonderful time sweety! xxx
@ItTakesAllSorts (4096)
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25 Dec 07
I have been away from here for a while but i am glad I saw your post.
I hope you are feeling better now, its sounds like you have really been through it mummymo. My thoughts are with you.
Have a great Christmas with your family and I hope 2008 will bring you much success and health.
I have missed you loads xx
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@ItTakesAllSorts (4096)
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18 Jan 08
Its great to hear from you, I have so neglected this site, things have changed so much here and alot of people are not so active as before.
I do need to take time to be here and say hello like before when i was such an addict!
I hope 2008 will be your year and you can put last year behind you. You have been missed my dear friend.
Take loads of care of yourself and I look forward to chatting to you soon xx
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@mummymo (23706)
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17 Jan 08
Thank you so much alsorts my dear friend - I am feeling a lot better now - mentally at least! My partner and I joke that this has been our annus horriblus and it can only get better from here on in sweety! I wish you every happiness sweety and hope to catch up soon! xxx
@someonesmom (5761)
• Canada
24 Dec 07
Hi mummymo,
What a wonderful surprise to see you here. I'm so thankful that you're on the mend, and trust things will look up for you from now on. I've been keeping up with your health via weemam, and you have been in my thoughts and prayers. I wish you all of the best, for your appointment at the pain clinic.
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@someonesmom (5761)
• Canada
17 Jan 08
Thanks so much for this, and don't worry about being remiss, as I'm just glad when you're able to be with us. I pray that you'll have good results from the mri. I'll keep in touch, and if I don't hear from you, I'll be in contact with weemam, to see how you are. Take care, friend, and God Bless you. xxx
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@mummymo (23706)
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17 Jan 08
You know that I miss you and feel bad I have been so remiss in keeping in touch! Pain clinic went ok and have now had my mri - get the results in a couple of weeks and will let you know what happens when I get them! Love and hugs to you and your lovely daughter! xxx
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@PurpleTeddyBear (6685)
• Canada
22 Dec 07
Yaaaaaaaaaaayyyyyyyyyyyyy!
I'm so happy to hear that your back! I am really sorry thought that things have been so rough for you! I hope you have a great Christmas Sweetie. You and your friendship are such a blessing!
Luv & Hugzz, PurpleTeddyBear.
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@PurpleTeddyBear (6685)
• Canada
31 Dec 07
I'm so glad your back too hun! This was the most Christmassy purple bear I could find, but I think it is here to stay. Thanks for the compliment! I like it better then the other ones I have had so this one is a keeper!
Luv & Hugzz, PurpleTeddyBear.
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@KrazyKlingon (5005)
• United States
23 Dec 07
Hmmm - my reply to your title would be, "And I am front. Great to meet you, back."
Hopefully, things will get better. At least you were able to get back online to let friends know that you are alive & trying to kick, & this kick worked. Anyway, enjoy the holidays.
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@hoghoney (3747)
• United States
23 Dec 07
Well hello there Mummymo, it is great to hear from you. I am gald to hear that things are going better for you. We have missed you here but that is ok your health is more inportant to us. We will all be here when you get back in to the swing of things. Take care of yourself and have a Merry Christmas to you and your family. xxoo
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@MsTickle (25180)
• Australia
28 Dec 07
Your post here has brought tears to my eyes. What sort of friend am I that didn't realise what a terrible time you have gone through? I, too, am in pain a lot of the tme or perhaps I should say more discomfort. It truly eats away and I wonder what I'm doing wrong and I get cranky with myself all the time because I think I'm not taking care of myself, then I get upset because I can't do my chores properly or often enough and things around me are not as I would like them.
So, I know what you have been going through, at least, in part. Unlike you, there is only me to take care of, that can be a blessing and a curse because I often feel alone and unloved.
You always seem so cheerful and friendly, loving and giving. I so admire you my friend and you have always made me feel good. I'm pleased for you that things have turned around. Big, big hugs to you.
@mummymo (23706)
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17 Jan 08
Sweetheart you are a wonderful friend - and you didn't know for the same reason that people who see me on a regular basis didn't - I didn't want anyone to know!
I wish I could be there for you and give you a huge hug - it breaks my heart that you feel alone. I guess even with lots of people around we can feel alone when we are in pain most of the time - as you say it eats away at you! I didn't realise that you were in the same situation and I wish I had - I am here if you need to talk sweety!
Thank you for your support and your friendship - it means a lot! xxx
@lols189 (4742)
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14 Feb 08
glad to see you back here on mylot mummymo. i was away myself for quite a length of time as i was busy with college and so on. am glad to hear you are recovering as i was wondering how you was getting on. hope your back to your best as quickly as possible. take care and take it easy. see you around
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@mummymo (23706)
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14 Feb 08
I know you have been away sweety - I have been checking to see if you are around on a regular basis! I am so pleased to see you as I have been so worried about you specially cos of the things that were happening about the time you stopped getting here! Waiting on a 'therapeutic lumbar epidural, specialist back clinic and acupuncture at the beginning of March and will hopefully get back on my feet soon! xxx
@maddysmommy (16230)
• United States
28 Dec 07
HUGS Mummymo! Sorry to hear what you have been going through my friend. I had not realised that your back and leg pain problems had been getting worse. I wish you a speedy recovery and you will be in my thoughts and prayers. Take care and welcome back to mylot ::)
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@mummymo (23706)
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17 Jan 08
Thank you so much sweetheart - that means a lot! I guess I don't like to say if the pain is getting worse - I am more like my Grandma than I ever realised! I am getting better mentally anyway - at least I have had my mri now after 6 months of waiting so in a few weeks I should know what can be done to help the pain! Thank you for your support sweety - it is really good to be back! xxx
