How people make you feel

Because of the way people are. And the car acciendent that I was in that messed up my back really bad. And the rest of my illness. That is why I am I a fixed income.

I retried working and I got sick and got put in the hospital. So I had to stop all over again. You see I have Asthma and everything sets it off cleaners and things that people wear to make them smell good and things they put in the air to make the room smeell nice. I am allergic to over 200 things and one thoses things sets off my asthma. I'm on a lot of med's for for it that only slow it down, but dosen't get reid of it or control it.

Well, I don't know what to say. I'm sorry you are having a rough time. I've been through that too, but I work now too. Hope things start looking up for you.

I agree the only person you can depend on i youself. Because there are people in this world that is self centered.

Right, and avoiding that kind of person is better, if you can. It is easier not to have to deal with THEIR mess, if you know what I mean. :-)

Thank you. I will.

After years of doing favors and being there for my family, I finally got fed up and said enough is enough. I packed up all my belongings back in '94 and left Calgary to come back to Montreal. I come from a very dysfunctional, (I won't say family because they have been anything but) situation, I mean I got to the point that when my phone rang I knew without answering it who it was, my stomach would get tied into knots, dear old mom, she never had anything good to say. Anyway, to make a long story short, in 1997 it all came to a head and I broke all ties with them and I am so happy, relaxed and at peace. I don't miss them because you don't miss what you never had. I guess I am cold hearted but I am better off having no contact with them at all. As for depression, I have had chronic depression since I was 14 yrs old and while I do take medication, there is nothing to be done, with me it is chronic, I also don't really bother with people either, can't be bothered, that to is a sign of depression, anything you want to know about it, just ask me because I know a lot. So, it is me, Suzie and Wookie and we are all we need. Best of luck, but I would tell that sister if she can't say or do anything useful, to take the door, you don't need her in your face. Remember only the strong survive.

I try too. But all my boyfriend wants to do is live beyond his means instead of within his means and pay the bills. And that maks it hard on me and I have to get money off his mom to pay a bill.

Thanks I will. Things are starting to come together on the home front.

I'm not really selfish. I do alot for my family. It's just when I ask my sisters to do somthing for me they say they don't have the time to do it. Sometimes they do it and start a fight about it. So it not a question of being selfish. The reason I'mdepressed all of the time is because of all the fighting I can't take it.