Oops, I did it again! - I OD'd again!

Hi, I remember a mylotter mentioning that she is bipolar. I don't seem to see her around anymore. I'll have to check when was the last time she logged on. I'll send you a PM with her profile and you can maybe PM her then and maybe she can help you. I'm glad you are getting help:)

Wow, I'm sorry you're having such a tough time right now. I hope that you can get the help you need so you can figure out what has been plaguing you! If you're having trouble distinguishing dreams and reality, why not try locking pills or other dangerous objects up, or just plain removing them from the house? Good luck.

Hopefully now you will get the help that you need but I can tell you that is going to be a long tough road that is going to require a lot of will power from yourself. I am not bipolar, at least not diagnosed, but the one piece of advice I can give you, if you can follow it is to always give 24 hours from making a decision of this manner to actually following it through. That has worked for me many a time as I always think that something in a higher form intervenes. I wish you the best of luck.

really sorry to hear this hope you are getting a bit better

Hi dmillman. When I read your story my heart really ached for you. I am not Bipolar. However, I have been surrounded by mental illness my whole life. I am also a medical assistant that has dealt with all sorts of disorders over the last 16 years. So, I have some experience externally. I can't possibly know what you're going through to make you choose to die instead of live. I know that whatever happened to you in life must have been tragic or difficult to cope with. I have had some very painful life experiences. But, through it all I had a dream. I dreamt that I would get through it all and overcome it no matter what. I somehow found this inner strength from out of nowhere. That's not easy to come by. I felt that what happened to me in life was no longer going to continue to control me. I was tired of carrying around burdens and worries. I crawled through the rubble and found the light. And now I'm able to help others and it feels good. Dying is easy. It's the living that is hard. To just let go and call it quits is not only selfish to those around you who love you, but, it means you've given up. Don't give up. Ever. Life will always have challenges, ups and downs. But, it's what you do with those challenges that makes life worth living. Life is so precious and it's the best gift God gave us. Use it. Use your experiences and feelings to help others. Did you ever wonder if that might just be your purpose in life? Is to help others get through whatever you've gone through? Don't throw it all away. I feel that you may have a special gift to share with so many people. Bipolar disorder can't be cured, but you can minimize the symptoms. There are wonderful medicines out there to help. But, you have to make the choice to take those medicines. You have to make the choice to seek counseling. You have to make the choice to find a higher power. Once you do, you'll see life in a whole new perspective. I will pray for you. I will. Please check back with us all and let us know how you're doing. You have a support system here. We really all care about you. God Bless my friend...