Molestation
By Briauna2008
@Briauna2008 (17)
United States
January 18, 2008 5:32pm CST
I know this is a touchy subject, but let's face it, this is something that really needs 2 be discussed.
The 1st time i was molested was @ age 4 by my then step-dad, but there was one morning i can never forget. My step-dad who name was Omar came and got me out of bed and fixed me some breakfast and sat @ the table and watched me as usual. I was home alone that day b/c my mom who is a LPN works many hrs. and my sister was over her grandparents house. As i begin to eat i kept swatting my legs b/c it felt as though something was crawling on them, but when i looked up Omar was smiling at me with this sinister smile on his face. I begin to get scared b/c this was the 1st time i was completely alone with him. He then picked me up and took me in the bathroom and laid me down on the floor and told me to be a big girl. That morning he went farther than he ever went before. As he entered me again and again I couldn't do anything but cry because it was hurting so bad. When he finished with me i laid crying in a puddle of blood; he gave me a bath and sent me to bed.
I never told anyone about that morning not even my sister and he was molesting her as well, but he never went that far before with her.
The reason i'm writing this is b/c we have many cases of abuse controlling the outcomes of youths lives everyday and i know all the hell i endured as a child i went through it to help many ppl come through it.
I am a 17yr. old who has been through much abuse in my life, but i have made it through. Many youth go through behavioral problems b/c of what they have been through during their childhood but they never learned how to express their emotions the right way, but always remember just b/c those men may have destroyed your past it doesn't mean they can determine your future.............I would really appreciate it if you placed your comments about what i've just written and for those who are really interested in my life story and really want to know all the hardships i've gone through and how i made it out feel free to stop by every week to read my life story in chronological order.
Thanx, Bri
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9 responses
@lecanis (16647)
• Murfreesboro, Tennessee
18 Jan 08
I'm sorry to hear that you had to go through this, and I'm glad you made it through.
I was sexually abused and raped as a child as well, and it's a horrible thing. I was diagnosed with post-traumatic stress disorder because of the flashbacks I have, which sometimes include physical sensations as well as sights, sounds, smells, etc.
But I'm here, and I have a life that I like and am proud of, and I work to protect and help others whenever possible. So while I'm still in some ways dealing with the mental trauma caused by the abuse I suffered, I also feel I "made it through".
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@academic2 (7000)
• Uganda
19 Jan 08
How could some one you almost thought was your Dad do such a mean thing to you-Am so saddaned that am rather ashamed of the fact that just like your step Dad, am also a man like him! Raping a 4 year old infant like you by the a father figure like your step father makes me think we men have some latent disease that shrouds our reasoning and makes us beasts without civilty! Frankly your story was extremely hurting and i want to thank God it is all behind you now-try not to unpack it again because it may spark off more trauma!
@peedielyn (1207)
• United States
19 Jan 08
I am sorry for your pain. I have been there and that is the most horrible thing to go through. You are still young. Hold your head up and tell someone. I castrated my abuser. I bludgened his whole lower area. I was tired of it. I was 5 when it started and I was 26 when it ended. I was arrested and told them things that they never could have imagined. I am 29 and don't feel afraid anymore. I pray that peace be with you. Pray, girl, and do it hard!!!! God does not give you more that you can handle. Be strong and Please for the LOVE OF GOD--LIVE!!!! Jesus did. Please keep posting. If this be your therapy by all means Keep posting. I will continue to pray for you!! best of luck!
@MAHESH2008 (844)
• India
30 Jan 08
Hi Briauna2008, It is realy sad to hear about this incident, That too the culprit is none other than a senior member of your family. Infact he is father figure and should be most responsible for your good future. It is difficult to undrstand why he has done this, he must be sick and should be thrown out of house. But fortunately he was continuous ly succesful in hids act.Let me tell you and admire you that you are the very brave to come out of this terror otherwise life would have been different. All the best and have best life now.
@Donhofsep (34)
• Netherlands
19 Jan 08
i really don't kow what someone can say when they see a message like this. i really hate where this world is headed, full of crimes and selfish people. i really like to hear how u got over this. i mean this is something really big. not alot of people are as strong like you who can talk about it like this. can u plz be my friend?? :D
@hanasadako (92)
• Philippines
19 Jan 08
Your story is very sad but always have faith, always pray to God that everything will be fine.
You can choose to tell this to your mother or any person close to you, you can also report this to social welfare offices that takes care of the welfare of battered women and abused children.
You can also sue your step-dad. Don't be afraid, be strong! There are a lot of institutions that help children that are undergoing, or have undergone same experience. You can go to non-government organization that provides free legal assistance to those who are abused.
Be brave! Don't show him weakness, let him know that God and law will punish him soon for what he has done to you.
@cupid74 (11388)
• Pakistan
19 Jan 08
Hi dear
really sorry to hear all this and i wish such person who not only involve in child molestation but also deface the pious relation on face of earth must be sentenced to worst punished so that other keep refrain from such things.
its killing of trust and relation, its sad,
i wish u all the best and peaceful future to u and all others who was maltreated in childhood
God bless you
byee
@shailendraraj (259)
• India
19 Jan 08
hey there.. i'm so sorry to hear what you went through... i understand it was tough for you to come out of it.. but you fought hard and overcame your fear.. i suggest whn you get married and have kids..especially girls.. educate them, develop confidence in them so that they can fight the evil from beginning only.
