I was brokenhearted, but I've managed to move on...
By darkangel079
@darkangel079 (1498)
United States
January 20, 2008 5:18am CST
I blogged this a couple of days ago of my past love I've known for almost 2 years. Met her in the Philippines in Naga City, we dated, grew in our friendship, then turned into love. We went out, dated, got to know each other deeper, then it got into romance, love like it was two people walking on water without looking down or back.
Leaving back to California was not easy. Promising her I would be back again to see her - She held on. We called, texted message, always to let her know I loved her and she did the same.
Always remembered her birthday and what holidays it was. When needed help I was there, understanding her situation. But then that's when it happened. After Christmas, I haven't heard from her for a while - no text message, no call. Everytime I called her her number was out of coverage or could be reached. She only texted a couple of times late 2007 and beginning of 2008 and that was it.
One day spotted her online - I asked her how she was doing and what happened - she turned on her webcam - her face showed no interests of wanting to see me - cold as ice and hard like stone. I asked her what was wrong then she said nothing. Then she asked me, "Do you still love me?" I said, "Why? You know I do?" Then she said, "Do you think we will stay together?" I said, "Of course!" Then I asked her, "Do you still love me?" She said, "No!" Then I said, "What? Tell me you're kidding me." Then she said again, "No I don't love you anymore!" Then she turned off her webcam and that was the last I've heard from her. Later on to find out, she left me for another man. Later on to find out, she been with another guy since I've been here in California.
Crushed inside, thorns stuck in my heart, feeling down, black as a dark can be, anger, sadness, frustration, but then I let go. To this day I haven't heard from her. Said my last goodbye and let her go....
The blog I sent out was titled, "All I ever did was love you, but you walked out of my life."
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10 responses
@reanicah2007 (444)
• Philippines
21 Jan 08
really? so honnsetly im a filipina andi want you to know that not all filipina are badand cheaters like there are some filipina are nice ,honest and good girl,lol,its not mean that i was bringing my own chair,its because i want you to know that in this world no one is perfect and all people in this world are getting hurt.no one is eccepted.even me i thought that the world are always getting unfair to me because every time i fall in love all guys that i thought that will love me also are getting cheated me and i hurt very much,thats why i always says to all guys that they are all cheaters.but now when i read your letter i realized that not all guys are bad and cheaters.
@darkangel079 (1498)
• United States
21 Jan 08
I'm not down siding filipinas. I love filipinas and me being half filipino they are really respectful, funny, beautiful and best to be with. I never said they were bad cheaters. Men and women cheat regardless of race. There are times when people meet up - it works out or it doesn't it. There are those that are faithful and those that are not. So I don't have any doubt in mind there is always a sweet, faithful, pure, loving filipina. Thanx for your response!
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@darkangel079 (1498)
• United States
20 Jan 08
no they're not - it can be either man or woman - known people that been through it - i've experienced myself. good thing i'm over it though - and got a great friend i keep in contact - sometimes people have to start off as friends - not to rush it - love a building structure.
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@dta_kitty (191)
• India
21 Jan 08
I think its the toughest thing to do.To move on.Good that you've moved on.Try to be very careful later on.Its better to have someone closer rather than have them far away.There would be an easier way of meeting and no room for anyone else to break into in your absence.We know that love works in all ways and that the distance doesn't matter at all but, we have to be prudent at times trying to avoid things from going wrong as much as we possibly can.When there is a relationship, it has to be tended to with care,closeness etc It does a lot of good.Over everything faithfulness is mandatory without which it can never work.All the best.
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@akacipher (64)
• India
23 Jan 08
Sorry to hear your story dude! I have been there taken that. Trust me dont look back at that time, it will hurt you. i wish people could justs top falling out of love like this and realize that things work on their own and that you have to make them work. anywyas i hope you have a better luck than me in moving on. I am quite over my thing but then nothing is the same. It seems like life can never be that good agin. best of luck buddy!
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@subha12 (18441)
• India
21 Jan 08
It is a sad story i must say. Very often it is seen that long distance love has tbgis type of ending. But what it seems taht there was no such problem or less love from your end. May be she was not comfortable with the idea that you moved on to different city.Its nice tat you have moved on. May be you find siomeone who really loves you always.
@Zelmarq (12585)
• Cebu City, Philippines
21 Jan 08
I know you are having a time dealing with your broken heart. I may never feel your pain coz I am not and I was never and have not dreamed of breaking my heart.
And I know its not easy to start the year with a broken heart, but its good that you have moved on and finally heal your broken heart in time.
Thats always the problem with long distance relationships, there will come a time that love will fade like a flower and waiting is no longer worth it and you cant help but one of the parties give up and and will no longer wait for the one away.
What makes it all painful on your part is that she was not able to explian or even share her side of the story.
Well, its all in the past now and I wish you a new friend that will hopefully develop into something what we call love.
A friend of mine who was in the same situation love singing this song. Im just sharing the lyrics and lets see if you can relate.
May be the chorus part is the one for you my friend.
Happy singing!
On Bended Knee lyrics
Darlin' I can't explain
Where did we lose our way
Girl it's drivin' me insane
And I know I just need one more chance
To prove my love to you
If you come back to me
I'll guarantee
That I'll never let you go
Can we go back to the days our love was strong
Can you tell me how a perfect love goes wrong
Can somebody tell me how to get things back
The way they use to be
Oh God give me a reason
I'm down on bended knee
I'll never walk again until you come back to me
I'm down on bended knee
So many nights I dream of you
Holding my pillow tight
I know I don't need to be alone
When I open up my eyes
To face reality
Every moment without you
It seems like eternity
I'm begging you, begging you come back to me
Can we go back to the days our love was strong
Can you tell me how a perfect love goes wrong
Can somebody tell me how to get things back
The way they use to be
Oh God give me a reason
I'm down on bended knee
I'll never walk again until you come back to me
I'm down on bended knee
Gonna swallow my pride
Say I'm sorry
Stop pointing fingers the blame is on me
I want a new life
And I want it with you
If you feel the same
Don't ever let it go
You gotta believe in the spirit of love
It can heal all things
We won't hurt any more
No I don't believe our love's terminal
I'm down on my knees begging you please
Come home
Can we go back to the days our love was strong
Can you tell me how a perfect love goes wrong
Can somebody tell me how to get things back
The way they use to be
Oh God give me a reason
I'm down on bended knee
I'll never walk again until you come back to me
I'm down on bended knee
Wanna build a new life
Just you and me
Gonna make you my wife
Raise a family
@joyce959 (1559)
• Philippines
20 Jan 08
Sorry this happened to you. Whatever it is that transpired between you and her, I don't want to comment. I just want you to know that not all relationships have happy endings. I know it hurts but as you said, you have to move on. There are still better girls out there for you. She's not worth of your love. It's her loss not yours.
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@poohgal (6845)
• Singapore
20 Jan 08
Good to hear that you have moved on. Long distance relationship is always difficult. It take both sides to commit. Since she is not the committed kind of gal, forget her. If she can do this to you, she might do this to another guy. She's not worth your loving.
Be happy. =D
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