If you could take it all back, would you?

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Here's the question, if you could take back the fact that you have kids, would you? I am only asking this because it is a thought that hit me not too long ago. And here is my reasoning for the question. I was thinking of a few discussions that I had seen and read where there were people that did not have kids and that was their choice, which is just fine I have absolutely nothing against that. I also have friends that don't have kids. And then I got to talking to my sister who at one point did want kids, but now she doesn't. And when looking at her Myspace page and hearing of all the stuff that she does, it made me wonder what it would be like if I myself didn't have kids. See, I have only been to a bar twice to have some drinks (the other times I just sat there waiting for my BF at the time to get off work). I have only been dancing in a club once. When I had the money, I went to the movies every chance I had. And I had been to maybe a couple of parties. ALL of that (except for the dancing) took place before I had kids. I had my first at 20 and we never had the money to go anywhere. And because I have this thing about letting strangers watch my children, I never had a babysitter because I lived where family wasn't. My fiance and I have been together for 5 years and have only been on 2 dates, any other time we went anywhere I had my son with us. Now we have 2 more children together (which makes a grand total of 3) and I still don't trust strangers and we still don't have the money to go out. So it makes me wonder what my life would have been like had I not had any kids. I know that by now I would have a much better job (or a job at all) than I did back then. I would probably have friends to go out with instead of being cooped up in the house all day. I would have freedom to go where and do what I want when I want, and to come home and go to bed in the same fashion...instead of having to stay home and be up when the kids are up and home. But then I think about what I do have, and I don't want that to change. If I did change it, I would never have had the experience of the joy that my three little monsters have given me. To take care of a boo-boo, to see them smile over the simplest thing, to hear them laugh, to see them explore and ask "mommy, what is that?", to see them open up the cupboards and pull out a box of macaroni and cheese, to see them play with the box instead of the toy that you bought them. The little things...and the big things too. To see them walk for the first time, to hear them talk, to see them ride a bike, to see them off to school. All that makes my life what it is now!! And even though I don't get to party or hang out with friends, or have the occasional drink and dance...I wouldn't change my life for ANYTHING.