When do you say you're giving up?

Life is sometimes cruel, in most times of my life I know I am in love with the man that I married. I know I am a woman who took a vow to stick forever to the man that I chose. But sometimes you feel like the fantasy that you have all been longing for won't be possible with that person and that's the time you'd feel like giving up. I am just a simple woman with simple desires in life. I juse want to be hug and greeted each morning, I just want to feel wanted, I just want to at least exprience having received a flower bofore I grow white hairs. I just want someone I love to hole me while we are walking. But these are not possible. I married someone who's careless about my feelings. Do you know how it feels to be pregnant and your all in pain, when you turn to your husband for comfort he just can't understand why you are in agony and then he just don't know what to do but ignore you? In those times I always wanted to give up. My heart is bleeding. I felt like love is so stupid for holding me but how long will it keep me holding on? How long do I have to long for flowers, sweet caress, hugs, hand held, kisses and feel like I am a real woman being loved? Each day that I am looking for something not in him, I began to feel that myself is drawing apart from him. I fear the day would come that my heart will just stop beating for him. I may not know it one day my heart will just give up. Please make me understand and on your own view as a man, am I being loved?

Thanks Jay, it feels so good having someone around to hear my thoughts. About a year and a half ago, I tied to leave him. I was packing all my things but the thought of raising a child alone is holding me. I mean I am not worried financially, I have a good job as sales manager and I know I can easily live a good life. Over and over i explained to him that I can always live without him but nevertheless I still want him to play an important role in our lives as we grow older. I'm pretty sure you understand my feelings because you're a man too and I am sure you don't treat your girl that way. I always think he's in love with my achievements not for what I am. See that pains me more. The saddest part now is that I am again pregnant with our 2nd baby rather babies for it's bound to be twins. I can't help but cry thinking my children would feel my agonies, thirst and hunger for love.

wow...thats a tough one, no your not being loved. sometimes i'm so ashamed of my fellow man, its easy for me to say leave him beause i'm not there(wish i was to smack mhim up the side of the head). there is no easy answer because no matter what you do your hearts going to break & with kids involved it just isnt fair. are you able to leave him, place to go, shoulders to cry on?. leave him, write a dear john letter & go. its going to hurt big time but something needs to be done. maybe he'l wake up & see what he has lost.. my heart goes out to you..

You could be right, emotions are really very strong. You just made me smile thanks a lot.