oh grow up already
stop being a jackass
why does it ennoble you to diminish me
you will have to deal with this someday
I can see you're confused, maybe this will help.
By gardengrrl
@gardengrrl (1445)
United States
February 6, 2008 10:44pm CST
I have a picture in my mind's eye, of you sitting at a computer, perplexed, wondering, "Whatever did I do to set that crazy bi*ch off?" You poor thing, let me answer that for you!
It was your assertion that I "fell off the face of the earth." Of all the a**hole things you could have said to me, that was the a**holest, or at least top ten. It is utterly and completely archtypical of you to "forget" the substance of our last conversation. It didn't suit your image of yourself in the St. Betty mode, and you certainly don't want to think about actually taking responsibility for maintaining a relationship with another human being (your family doesn't qualify). Unfortunately for you, meeting your own needs by "forgetting" that which you don't like has consequences, too. I don't live in the world inside your head, and your needs are not the only ones that matter in this world. If you are too much of a coward to face huge chunks of your life and deeds, that's your problem. I have no intention of catering to your desire to edit history for your own comfort, and I damn sure will drop your a*s and forget it ever existed before I validate all the mommy-bumping lies you tell yourself, so that you can stay the saintly victim, the amazing wonder woman who never hurt anyone in her whole life, and never did anything to deserve the bad shite that happens to her. In the immortal words of Jamie Foxx in "Jarhead", "F*CK...THAT...SH*T!"
Now, again, you have a choice: same old turn away and "forget", or step up and act like a grown woman instead of a freaking spoiled princess for a change. The fact that I see directly through the tissue to your core is what frightens you, I know - it would be far easier for you to turn away and go live among those who challenge you not. If you would stop being the world's dumbest smart person for two seconds, you would also see that's why you can't actually afford to throw me away again.
I believe it was Geddy Lee who said, "if you choose not to decide, you still have made a choice."
If you ever find enough of a backbone to actually respond to anything I've said, you know how to find me. I don't recommend waiting another 3 or 4 years, though. That would be insulting, and I doubt I'd react in a kind and understanding fashion.
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@gardengrrl (1445)
• United States
7 Feb 08
LOL... don't be frightened, I only bite people who know me really well!
This has actually been kinda cathartic for me. It doesn't matter whether the person to whom it's written ever actually reads it (or admits that she did!), it has felt good to give life to these feelings through writing. Plus, it's a change from my usual brand of babble! =o)
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