Have you ever given your soul to someone on a Silver Platter????

United States
February 23, 2008 8:26pm CST
Have you ever given your complete heart and soul to someone? I'm not talking about- OH I LOVE THIS PERSON but still you hide things about yourself from them for fear of what they would think. I'm talking brutally honest- everything about yourself. I have opened myself up like that to someone and I have never felt so vulnerable in my entire life. This person could take my heart and shove it straight up my pooper and I would never be the same again. He knows every single thing about me and fortunately for me he still loves me. The good, the bad, and the ugly..I don't have to hide any feelings or thoughts from him as I have had with pretty much everyone (guys) for my entire life. It's such a free feeling and I have embraced the vulnerability. I believe and trust that this is the way it should be for us. I'm very fortunate for that. I have pretty much let down all walls that I have always had and finally with great joy..I can say that I can finally be me- goofy, romantic, loud mouthed at times me. Has anyone ever been in a relationship like this where you were so vulnerable but instead of the human reaction of fearing it- you embrace it? Share your stories if you would like... Thanks for reading...
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• United States
24 Feb 08
I gave my all, everything I had, the good and the bad to my very first love. He knew everything about me. Things that my closest friends never even knew. It is a great feeling but let me tell you if it ends it's like falling from 10 stories and landing face first on the concrete sidewalk. I gave him everything and more. And I knew everything about him as well. But the relationship did end. And now almost 7 years later my heart still bares some of the scars. I do not think that I will ever be able to open myself up to someone like that ever again. I could never trust someone with my emotions like that again. I really do hope your relationship ends different that mine did. I hope you's stay together 4ever. Cause it is an amazing feeling to have. I wish you all the luck in the world.
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@ESKARENA1 (18261)
24 Feb 08
It is a great feeling but let me tell you if it ends it's like falling from 10 stories and landing face first on the concrete sidewalk. I couldnt agree more, and when this happens you are a little less likely to do it again, which makes us lesser people I guess blessed be
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• United States
24 Feb 08
I don't think it makes anyone lesser people. In fact the person who took it and demolished it- they are the lesser ones for it. :)
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• United States
24 Feb 08
Thanks so much and it really is amazing. I'm sorry that he took yours and broke it like that. Nobody deserves that..but like I said to the post above you, he didn't deserve your heart and soul. I hope that regardless of that things are going great for you. Thanks for stopping by.
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@ESKARENA1 (18261)
24 Feb 08
when i was younger i was a gutter heart. I mean i would be completely open and honest with everyone i met, I also expected them to be the same with me. However, as i got older I have realised that5 being so oen just makes you vulnerable and some strange, damaged individuals take the oppertunity to hurt you because they can. In answering your question I have to say that nowadays I am a lot less open than i once was. I am sad to say but it is because there are so many haters out there that we become reticent about showing our inner soul blessed be
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• United States
24 Feb 08
I'll never understand those people who destroy others because of their damage. It looks like I'm going the opposite of everyone. I was very guarded when I was younger because I didn't trust easily. In ways, I still don't but I guess now I choose to surround myself with only people that I can trust. That might be the difference now. Thanks for the thoughtful comment. Blessings to you as well.
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@bellaofchaos (11538)
• United States
25 Feb 08
Good for you Hun, I'm so happy that you were able to let down your walls and share a part of you that you haven't been able to .. I have done this a couple times and it's been ok the relationships ended for different reasons. LOL!! But I have felt most of my life if you don't risk it for love what do you take the risk for. I'm glad that you took your risk or leap of faith and you were caught and not dropped. Have a nice day hun.
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• United States
26 Feb 08
At least I haven't been dropped yet! Just when I was a baby! Just kiddin'..Thanks so much for the wishes too. I'm sure that he is that amazing one that wouldn't do that in a million years! Thanks for stopping by!
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• United States
24 Feb 08
Oh I am so happy for you and wish I had the ability to just tear down these walls I've built up slowly over time but I can't. I don't even think it's me being guarded though because I do love my man and I love him with every ounce of my being but if he would take my heart and shred it into a million pieces then try to spoon feed it to me I wouldn't be devastated. I would take the pain shove it deep within the recesses of my soul and it would fester there into anger and hatred. Then I would feed from that anger and hatred to fuel me through how ever long it took to get over our break up. So my sweetie loves me too for the good the bad and the ugly that he has come to know in and of me but it is the ugly that will keep me safe in the event of a potential heart break. The most I will end up is just a little more cynical.
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• United States
24 Feb 08
That's a great way to put it about the ugly. At first I had the fact that I could be squashed like a cockroach in the back of my head for a bit- then he just makes it all go away. It's really weird for me and I'm still getting used to it but it's really amazing at the same time. I never in a million years thought I would ever be able to say this either. Then again I have known him for a long time and even better now..:) All my other relationships I was always angry but not that hurt- maybe I was too angry to be hurt. I don't know. This one I don't think I would be angry but insanely hurt. He wouldn't do it in a million years- whewwwwww!
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@shypoet80 (112)
• United States
24 Feb 08
Yes...I have. And after 4 years promising never to use it against me, hurt me, and swearing we would always be friends, he took my heart and shoved it down my throat. I think he still carries my soul around in his pocket and plays with it. cause two years later I still feel empty.
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• United States
24 Feb 08
I'm so sorry my dear. He didn't deserve your heart anyway. It was too good for him. You will once again have it back when the time and the person is right. You can never give up hope on that! Have a good night.
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24 Feb 08
I have, my partner now knows all my insecurites and the true me its so bloody scary and yes I do feel vunerable and I would never be the sma if he broke my heart and left me but he says he loves me and he still holds me at niht so I feel protected and that he wants to be with the true me no matter what and because of this I want to be with him no matter what as well.
• United States
24 Feb 08
Awwwww..much luck for you both. It sounds beautiful..Thanks for stopping by with such a wonderful comment.
• Canada
4 Mar 08
You go girl!!!! I am so happy to hear how happy you are...goodness knows from some of what you've shared and worked through I'd say you've earned it. What you are experiencing with your guy is how things were with David and I when we met. I called him for advice about buying my first computer...and we started chatting on the phone. Then we began calling each other every evening and chatted..and chatted and chatted...about most everything...without any reservations at all. At first it felt really weird..and I'd often hang up the phone and second guess myself and say.."Did I really tell him that...goodness...it is so..personal..so 'me.' What might he think of me?' Yet within all my intellectual apprehensiveness a large part intuitively 'knew' that it was emotionally safe for me to be THAT open..THAT real..THAT 'me.' That started seventeen and a half years ago. Here we are all these years later. I gave my complete heart and soul to someone...his name is David. Our openness and trust has gone through many stages of transformation and each stage confirms the strength of what I call our sacred partnership..I embraced it..he embraced it and here we are. Partners in life..love and business! Love like this can and does happen! Raia
@kalav56 (11464)
• India
4 Mar 08
HI Wonderful chat within chat.I am a diehard romantic and can virtually write a thesis on Mills and Boon novels..I still watch light romances with such a glow on my face that my son and husband smile very indulgently when I do it.Needless to say that I loved your romantic narration.May you and David have many many many many many more years of togetherness.
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• Canada
4 Mar 08
Ah Kala...thank you for dropping by and caring enough to comment on my comment here. You strike me as a romantic and that you enjoyed my offering to Skinnychik about how David and I met and where we are today. As I mentioned in my e-mail to you...we renew our vows every few years..and we are planning another gathering to do that in June of this year. We are hopeless romantics too! Glad you enjoyed it...hope you do to Skinnychick! Raia
• United States
4 Mar 08
Being a diehard romantic as you both are- thanks for stopping by as well Kala- I really loved reading about you and David. It's very beautiful and the same dream I'm living. We are the rare yet lucky..it's beautiful every day to wake up and feel as if you'd just won the lottery. So special and truly amazing. I'm going to sit around and bask for awhile about how lucky we are. Oh wait I already do that. You and David are amazing together and I venture to say also apart. Have many more years of blissful romance and ultimate happiness!
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