I hate

I think it is great that you are expressing these feelings. It is the first step in awakening to what you are experiencing. I am a poet also and I have grown from writing. Releasing the feeling and then looking deeply in to it. I think you should keep writing until it all runs out, then you will heal and can move on. I had a really bad relationship with my Dad, after he passed away, I wrote all the time about how I felt, I really was able to heal and find genuine love for him. It is the best thing you will ever do for yourself. Good work and good luck.

Nasasaktan ako sa twing naaalala ka Pagkat bumabalik muli sa alaala Ang mga panahong ika'y kasama pa Dahilan kung bakit mundo'y nagsanga na, Di lubos maisip kung ba't nangyari pa Ang bawat sandali ay lubhang mabilis Oras lumilipas kahit di mo nais Ang bawat gunitang nagbigay ng hapis Sa munti kong puo'y muling maaalis Sa muling pag gising may pusong matatag Na sa aking puso'y aking natitinag at mula sa puso'y aking inihayag Na di na iibig, Di na mabibitag Ngunit kapalaran ay nakatakda na Pagkat ang puso ko'y nahulog sa iba Ang buhay ko ngayon any naging masaya Pagkat pag-ibig koy kapiling ko twina

Been there done that, many times over the years, but have never put it into words the way you have. I hope that this will pass and we will get to read more of your writing with a bit more positive feelings :)

I'm not sure what you want people to do with this. Is it a poem you just wrote? Is it one you wrote some time ago and do you still feel that way about him? Is this about someone you are still with? It is so sad. Here is a sequel: I love feeling for you. I tried to talk myself out of it, but am glad I didn't. I love being together with you I love that your actions are louder than words. You never lie, so neither do I, I love to know I can believe you, I love to know I can believe in you, too. I love the way you stay, for if I let you go, I would never let you come back. I'd never let you make me cry, I'd hate to hate you. I'd shed you, not the tears, If you made me crazy, I'd open the door and let you fly, I'd say good bye, I wouldn't want to make you stay, I wouldn't even try.